Delinquents : The Thirteen Contenders

Chapter Twenty Two : Guilt and Anger

WARNING

This part will be mentioning Rape and Cutting. If this may trigger you, please skip.

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Silence.

It was something that had surrounded the room. It was a type of silence that was filled with tension inside of it.

The group was currently seated as Wonwoo was being treated by Mingyu, the rest were currently in the room discussing upon the past events that had happen at the building.

"I'll wait for Wonwoo to speak up, though may I ask some info at least?"

Seungcheol asks the group as Minghao clears his throat before speaking.

"I heard he was rape or something"

His voice were hesitant yet he brought up the courage to speak up upon the situation.

The group's aura had changed as Jeonghan suddenly walked out of the room with anger in his face.

Joshua then stood up as he followed his twin. Chan stared at the two siblings with worried in face as he saw Soonyoung putting a hand om his shoulder while giving him a small smile.

Seungcheol the took a deep breath as he stared at the group as he seem to be in deep thought.

"I apologize"

Seungcheol lowered his head as his members gave him a small smile. Guilt and anger was the thing that Seungcheol was feeling.

He promised himself to never repeat the trauma his members had experience yet this certain event had occured all the sudden.

"Nah, it was un-"

"It was Chan's fault though."

Soonyoung's words were cut off by minghao as minghao began to give a deadly glare to Chan.

Minghao was frustrated by the happenings so he didn't have any choice but to blame the person who was with Wonwoo at that time.

Wonwoo and Minghao were both close to each other. Both has different interests yet the two shares the same personalities.

"Tsk, if you didn't follow then he wouldn't be raped"

"if I didn't follow, you'd have a hard time finding the location."

Chan suddenly responses to Minghao's words as the group who were inside the room were shocked by the sudden out bursts

"Kid, don't get me started"

Minghao rolls his eyes.

"Enough! Chan, would you mind if you leave for a second?"

Seungcheol pleads as Chan nodded slowly, agreeing to the Leader's words.

Chan then took a deep sigh as he bit his bottom lip before standing up and leaving the room.

He didn't want to defend any more since he knew his words would be silenced at the end.

He was frustrated and guilty upon everything. He knew Minghao was right yet he knew that he was also correct.

Chan then quickly proceed to his room where he stays in as he locks the door. He took a deep breath before breaking down unto tears.

He never understood why he felt sadness since he knew the first feeling he felt was guilt when Minghao let out those words.

He never understood his emotions if he would be honest. Chan was the type of person who would hide it all to the point he would just forget the feeling.

The fact he just fakes everything, not because he didn't want to take risks but because he already knew the outcome of that certain event.

Happiness.

It was a common emotion that mostly everyone feels yet it once you feel this emotion, sadness would be the next thing that will be felt.

It is annoying in Chan's opinion.

Imagine feeling butterflies in your stomach and the next thing you knew, your heart began to feel heavy because of the large amount of problems that you were suddenly forced to battle.

Chan sighs as he got up while proceeding to the bathroom as he began to get the razor.

He then removed the suit he was wearing as it was full with cuts and holes. His body were filled with blood and it was surrounded by cuts along side the bruises.

He sighs as he turns on the razor before cutting his skin, deep but slowly.

His old scars were about to fade when Chan began to cut it once more. He was tired and depressed yet no one was there.

He wasn't afraid of death but commitment.

He was afraid to commit since he knew he hasn't got revenge yet. He knew he wouldn't allow himself to die unsatisfied so he finds a way to satisfy his guilt and revenge.

Every drop of blood that was being released by his skin gave him satisfaction. It was a weird thing to satisfy a person just by seeing himself suffering but he knew to himself that he can't do anything but to follow his way upon satisfying himself.

Suffering.

It was a common fear among people but to some it gives satisfaction and happiness. They seem to be contented by seeing themselves or others suffer, some won't understand but in Chan's opinion, this was one of the ways that could bring satisfaction.

Satisfaction.

It was a thing everyone wants to achieve but had gone through a lot before achieving it. He knew to himself that revenge was the only way to achieve satisfaction so he tries to find another way to find this so called satisfaction.

Chan knew that once you achieve satisfaction, a bigger problem will be meant to face. He sighs to himself as he was worried upon the possibilities that may happen.

Why?

this was one of the common question that he would ask himself. Like why did this thing has to happen? Or why should this certain event has to occur.

Guilt began to control him as he held unto his head while he screams in satisfaction because of the large amount of blood that is being let out in his skin because of the large amount of cuts.

He knew he was in pain but he also knew he was satisfied by it. At least he knows that he was satisfied by the problem he just caused.

"Chan?!"

A voice was to be heard and a large amount of knocks and worried voices were to be heard in the background.

Before Chan could see the person who called, he closes his eyes as he waits for the happening when he wakes up.

Sleeping is the only way to rest so he does this. After the pain, he wakes up numb as he just continue the day feeling nothing.

As Chan closes his eyes, he waits until his body will be ready since he knew to himself that his mental health could never.