Delinquents : The Thirteen Contenders

Chapter Thirty Four : Announcements

"Chan, get up!"

Seungkwan woke him as he sat up, yawning. "What?" Chan asks making the man chuckle. He was handed a paper as he opened it once received.

Greetings.

Lee Chan, I Choi Seungcheol, also known as S.coups, the Leader of our group, invites you in your first mission.

You will be group in the fighters where in Hoshi is the leader. Kindly approach those you'll be group especially the leader. The members already knew about this and everyone agreed for you to Join this.

Good luck in your first mission Lee Chan, I expect the best from you.

- S.Coups

Chan looks at Seungkwan with wide eyes as he held the man's shirt closer towards him before blabbering.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN FIRST MISSION? WHAT THE HECK IS A FIGHTER? WHO THE HELL IS HOSHI AND WHY NOW?" Chan shouts as he received a huge slap on his face.

"ouch" Chan mutters letting go of Seungkwan making him chuckle.

"Chill and yes, first mission. He gave you a letter since it's a special mission. A fighter is a one of the people who are assigned to be the one fighting. That means you focus more on the battlefield. Hoshi is Soonyoung and now because he said so." Seungkwan ended his explanation with a smile as Chan stares at him in disbelief.

You can't really blame Chan as he has no experience in these things yet the day he was supposed to be trained was ruined because of his health concerns.

He felt pressured as he kept on reading the last statement. They expect so much from him yet he don't know how or what to do. He felt tired at the same time worried.

"Bro?" Seungkwan called as he looks at the man with worried eyes. Seungkwan sighs as he hugs Chan tightly,understanding the look he gave him.

"Don't feel too pressured, it's your first mission. Whether you do good or bad, as long as you're safe." Seungkwan said as he tries to help Chan's feelings.

"Who am I going to be with?" Chan asks as Seungkwan smiles.

"Soonyoung hyung, Jun hyung and Minghao Hyung." Seungkwan replied making Chan freeze at his response.

"Minghao.." Chan whispered as he didn't want to interact with him. He didn't want any problem along side the hatred he currently receives.

He never understood why, neither did he understood Minghao's point of view. He suddenly started to get hate as that is something he didn't expect.

They were so welcoming at first, so he never looked at them badly, even if he never got the treatment he wants.

He wanted peace, they gave him accompany but that accompany seems to be empty. Is it because he's unsatisfied? With who? And what?

He has these questions wrapped around his head as he would wonder, will this group give him satisfaction or will it be the reason of his death?

No one will know but one thing for sure is that he won't let things happen again.

He won't allow himself to be broken and torn into pieces. He won't allow his purity to be broken. He won't allow his happiness to go far even if he knew it was never near.

There were times he would admit he felt comfortable but is this current satisfaction worth the future pain?

He knows that after the simple satisfaction will come a huge pain that will leave him torn into pieces and let himself suffer a scar that will never be healed.

"Kiss me."

That was something he heard that made him snap. He looked at the direction seeing Vernon and Seungkwan flirting.

"STOP!" Chan shouts as he hid under the bedsheets, not wanting to see his best friends make out.

"That made you snap out of your thoughts." Vernon laughed giving Seungkwan a high five.

"Shut up." Chan groans as Vernon threw him a pillow. "Oh please, says the one who never fell in love."

"I did fell in love-"

Before Chan could finish his statement, the two rushed to him as they sat beside him.

He guesses they wanted to hear his past but it wasn't a time to speak about it. It was so called "teenage love." Yet it was the most traumatic one.

"Tell us, who's the lucky girl-"

"Or boy." Vernon cut seungkwan words as Seungkwan rolled his eyes.

"I'll tell you soon but not now." Chan said to them.

"Unfair! But why?" Seungkwan asks as he gave a chuckle before speaking.

"It's because it was trauma, not love."

The room was silent as Seungkwan apologizes for trying to force him. Chan chuckles saying it was no big deal even if he wasn't sure if it was.

"Oh right! We'll get you some food first, you must be starving after having that talk with Seungcheol hyung." Vernon said as Chan's smile drop, remembering the scene.

"Yeah, thanks." Chan smiled as the two left, leaving Chan alone with himself to drown with these thoughts.

"The talk with Seungcheol was quite intense." He muttered to himself remembering the events.

It became a fear, he didn't get to explain everything because it wasn't the right time. He thought that the leader would understand but he felt threatened? He doesn't know.

He started wondering about what will happen if they know the truth. Chan won't be surprised if he gets kicked out, knowing his past.

It affected lives of many yet he was the one who should be blamed but he was a kid. What does a kid knows in this world filled with hatred and pressure?

He wanted to go back in time where in he was happy, the time he enjoyed life.

The time his brother was still there....

He felt hatred on his brother, pure hatred he could say. He was left to carry the pressure.

He hated his brother, he wanted to kill him once he found where his location is. That is where he'll start his so called satisfaction, once his brother is gone.

Chan was betrayed at such a young age and left alone with no knowledge with life. He was left with a cruel destiny because of him.

That's the reason why he sometimes felt awkward/uncomfortable with the word 'brother'

It was because he was the first one who betrayed him...

Forgiveness was never an option in his opinion, he suffered so much yet he only gets the word 'sorry' in the end. He may seem selfish for his wants but that's something that'll give him satisfaction.

Is he at fault for wanting revenge on someone he once loved and trusted before?

Chan was about to get the cutter when the door suddenly opened making his tracks stop.

There he saw Jun, panting as the tall Chinese man went closer to him. He gave Chan a smile that made him feel weird.

"Lee Chan right? I'm Jun! I'll be helping you in your training before tomorrow's mission. I won't lie when I say I'm forced but at least I get to interact with you! Wanna have some chinese food? Drop the cutter and let's have some fun!" Jun spoke as Chan stares at the Chinese man in disbelief.

He was going to cut himself yet this man asked him to eat chinese food with him? Well, one thing he is sure about is that it'll be a long day for him.