Reveries In The Rain

𝙲𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 11

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it's been a week since I met Chaos's Family and since then I also avoided Chaos whenever I see him at the University. Since this is the second time I'm avoiding him, feel ko expert nako sa pag -iwas sa kanya. Patting myself in the back. Good job self.

It was easy since we don't have any classes together and hindi nako dumadaan sa Building nila, medyo hindi ko na iniisip pa kung paano ako magkumahog para makadaan doon dati, it's in the past now and now I already know that out relationship's not gonna end well due to his misunderstanding of me being an attention seeker and a gold digger.

Wow talaga Chaos. Isa kang Judger! Punyeta.

Ugh, and I hate those fcking words, especially because they came out of his mouth. The person who I really admired and look up to just look at me with disgust in his eyes and made me look like a fool, right in my face. He really got me with his acting.

Deep down I actually hoped all those good things he did for me were all true even though I knew something was not right. Bakit kasi hindi ko sinunod yung guts ko edi sana hindi ako sobrang nasasaktan ngayon. Sana kahit papano kaya ko pang maahon yung sarili ko sa sakit. pero huli na eh, huli nako.

I've fallen really hard even though it was all just a lie on his part.

I already talked to Astrid about her relationship with Helios the day after the dinner and she didn't deny it. She told me everything and now I know why she kept it. She told me to not say a word to our other friends for now, 'cause she wants to be the one to say it herself. I understand since I myself haven't told them about the arrange marriage and who I'm marrying.

That day naligo din siya nang mura galing sa'kin, I'm not a saint para hindi magalit sa ginawa niyang paglalasing at pagtatago sa relasyon nila Helios, but still at the end of the day hindi ko padin kayang magalit sa kanya nang matagal kaya nagbati din kami agad.

I'm happy for her, I can see that she's really happy with him. The reason she was really upset those days at nag iinom kasi pala narinig niya yung about sa arrange marriage ni Helios sa ibang babae which is pinag awayan pala nila, but I already explained to her that I was that girl and he didn't accept it. So all is good now between the two of them. Helios was even the one who picked Astrid after our talk.

Sana all nalang talaga!

So ayun na nga back to reality na ulit and midterm is fast approaching next week and I need to review para d ako mawala sa pagiging Dean's lister and I poured my time out reviewing para maiwasan ko na din ang isipin pa yung mga sinabi ni Chaos. I don't wanna slap myself every day with the reality of how much he hates me.

A glimpse of his hazel eyes full of anger flash through my mind and it sends shivers down my spine. It wasn't a good sight.

I blink my eyes a couple of times to forget about that thought and just focus again on what I'm reading.

I'm at the library reading some notes on Tour 418 when I felt someone was standing behind me.

I suddenly felt goosebumps, Nasa pinaka dulo pa naman ako nang 3rd floor at hindi masyadong kita kasi may isang bookshelf na nakaharang from other study tables, kaya kung may masama mang binabalak sakin yung taong nasa likod ko siguradong magagawa niya 'yon.

Hinawakan ko nang mahigpit yung ballpen na hawak ko, handa na kung ano man ang mangyari. My heart was beating so loud when I heard a voice on the other side of the shelf.

"Chaos tara na! we're gonna be late. Where the hell are you?" It sounded like Reiki's voice...

Chaos? He's here? as if on cue bigla nalang tumibok yung puso ko.