Our Lives Turned Upside Down *A BTS Reverse Harem (On Hold)

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Nyx's POV

Kicking the sheets off me in frustration I sit up and hug my knees. I can't sleep, we went to bed three hours ago and all I've done is lay here and think. Thoughts won't leave me alone, circling around Nari and the guys. Not all, Hobi is very much hers. And for that I'm happy. He gives her peace, and she needs that. I'm sad she doesn't need me anymore. I miss our little talks. We used to tell each other everything, but being in this house, somehow my emotions are so heightened. And the jealousy is insane, eating me alive. 

And Tae changed for me and I never was his. And that's what's weird, why did he accept my seduction that afternoon? And I know I thoroughly fucked that up. But I'm glad Nari let him in a little. Watching the guys when she got out of the pool my blood boiled. Yoongi, Jungkook and Namjoon all ate her up with their eyes. 

Yoongi hurt the most, followed closely by Jungkook. I'm trying to avoid Namjoon. But it still stung. Especially having seen them have sex. And it looked like he did cuddle with her. And I so wanted it to be me. Why did he dump me? Without a word? Does he really prefer Nari? Then why seek me out over these last few days? Just to rub it in? I didn't give him the opportunity, walking away every time he tried. And playing Marco Polo today I was so grateful to Jimin and Jungkook. They expertly shielded me from Namjoon. But I know it must happen soon. I need to get it off my chest. 

Flopping back down I groan. And my thoughts circle around Jimin. The one who is just there. Not expecting anything of me. He lets me be me. With all my faults. And this stay in Korea has taught me, I have a lot of them. Still he is there. And pondering why I need him I realize that my mind calms down when he is near. Sitting up again I take a second. Is this what I need? Should I go? Looking down I see what I'm wearing is fine. The pajama shorts and I giggle softly seeing the t-shirt. Blue with Chimmy. How appropriate, and I know I already decided the moment the thought entered my mind. 

Getting out of bed I leave the room and descend the stairs quietly. The house is softly breathing in sleep. Silently reaching the first floor I realize I don't know which room is Jimin's. I know for sure that one is Tae. And that one is Jungkook. And although I saw the inside of Namjoon's, I don't know the door. Hobi, Yoongi, Jin and Jimin are a complete mystery to me too. So what do I do now? Closing my eyes I try to think back to the night I ran from Jin's room. It's hard, I really only remember seeing Nari with Namjoon. 

Hearing a door open, my eyes fly open and land on Namjoon stepping out of his room. He halts in surprise, and then steps into the hallway. Why does it have to be him? And he looks good, the damage Nari dealt him healing nicely. And seeing him shirtless has memories flashing through my mind. And it's a mix of my own and what I witnessed.  "Nyx?" He whispers, "please I want to ex-," 

"Which door is Jimin's?" I whisper a little louder than him and he regards me with sad eyes. But eventually he points to the door behind me. I give him a nod, turn around and enter Jimin's room. Leaning against the door trying to control my emotions but it's hard. I don't know why he affects me so hard? I still want him, but the way he treated me hurt. Worse than what Nigel ever did to me. 

Staying leaning against the door my eyes slowly become accustomed to the dark and I see a bed in the middle of the room. On top is a dark shape and just seeing him, not really seeing but knowing he's just meters apart from me, has my mind slow down. Pushing off the door I slowly walk to the bed. One wall is made up of windows but it's a moonless night tonight so it's dark. I don't see his features, but I hear him breathing. 

The other side has more room so I pad softly around the bed and get into it. Scooting closer I lay my head on his arm and look up at where his face should be. He doesn't wake and I scoot closer, crawling fully against him. He's wearing a shirt but when I lie my hand on his chest I feel the muscles. He stirs a little and tries to move the arm I'm lying on. And as he can't move it he wakes up. I feel him move his head, then I hear a click and soft light bathes the room in a golden yellow glow.