Our Lives Turned Upside Down *A BTS Reverse Harem (On Hold)

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Nari's POV

After yesterday's debacle at the zoo I'm feeling very off. The zoo has always been my perfect date idea and having my two favorites, Hobi and Tae, with me the whole day made me so happy. However, witnessing Nyx go off on Namjoon just soured the whole day. I spent the rest of our time worrying about her and seething at Namjoon. I told him to leave her alone, why didn't he listen; her body language was more than clear. 

Hobi said he needed to talk with Namjoon and Jin so I'm just moping in his room alone. I could go find Tae….no. I've made a deal with myself never to seek him out until I feel like he's completely learned his lesson. Why I've decided this when we only have 3 days left, I have no idea. I'm just incapable of forgiving so easily, it's completely nonsensical and unrealistic, yet here I am. I'm bored, I've already finished reading all the new books I brought with me, and I don't feel like watching tv alone. 

I decide to see if there is anything to tidy in Hobi's already immaculate room, but apparently my suitcase is the only unorganized thing here. After trying to fold and straighten my items I find that I need to do laundry. I gather all my dirty clothes in the hamper, then pop in my earbuds and shuffle my playlist. I also grab another one of my favorite books to re-read, White Truffles in Winter by N.M. Kelby. 

I head downstairs and see most everyone is gathered in the sitting room watching a movie or something. My earbuds make it easy for me to pass through the room and enter the hallway without interruption, since I've taken to avoiding almost everyone, except Hobi and Tae, this is ideal. Reaching the laundry room door I step inside and pull it closed behind me; I load my clothes and choose the correct setting. I hate this shitty little room, and force back the bile I feel rising in my throat. Every time I have to come in here it's like I see Nyx wrapped around Tae giving me that evil smile. 

Not wanting to stay here any longer than I have to, I open the back door and run straight into Yoongi. He looks down at me and gives me that gummy smile, I smile back at him but just politely. I try to sidestep him to get outside, he shifts and blocks me. Ok I guess we're doing this. "What do you want Yoongi?" He looks down at me, I see hurt cloud his eyes. "I want to see you, spend time with you, like we did when we were alone." I scowl at him, "You mean you want to fuck me then forget I exist." 

He looks shocked, he opens his mouth to speak but I interrupt him by raising a hand. "Stop. I don't want to hear your lame ass excuse for your hot and cold bullshit. You leave damage behind you wherever you go , first with me and now with Nyx." He looks wounded, but I'm angry and he's been eating at my mind since our night together. In another life I think I could fall for him easily, but Yoongi is careless and I think he would hurt me badly. "We could have been happy and had more of those nights over the last week; but it was your attitude and actions that have made both Nyx and I feel discarded and inhuman." 

I stare deeply into his eyes driving home my words, "After a few days I'll be out of your life for good, but there's one thing you should know about me Yoongi: I never forget, and I rarely forgive….even when I want to." I see his eyes grow glassy with emotion. I hate hurting him, but maybe it will spare whoever fills my place when I'm gone. I reach up and cup his cheek, wiping away the single tear that has slipped from his beautiful eyes. 

Standing on my tiptoes I kiss him, so sweetly and with all the care I wanted to give him. I hear him trying to hold back a hitched breath. Pulling away from him I meet his watery eyes with compassion. "It's too late for me, but not for Nyx….fix it before we leave. It's the least you can do." He doesn't stop me as I move around him and exit the house. Walking across the lawn to the patio area my heart feels a little heavy, but I didn't say anything that wasn't true. Maybe he'll listen and make amends with Nyx, I hope he does. Walking up the deck steps I let it go, just like I told him, it's too late for me.