Thoughts that come to mind

Lost

I'm Screaming inside,
with so much anger and so much pride,
I just want to let it all out,
or maybe I should just calm down.

Should I for once be the "bad guy"?
or should I do the right thing and be myself?
They say it's ok to not be ok,
but why don't I feel ok when I'm not ok?

I just want this feeling to go away,
words remain unsaid that I wish I had proclaimed.
I do that which I do not wish to do,
while fighting to just be good.

The dark side seems like the easy life,
It's more appealing than the light,
because in it you don't hide,
the war that is going on inside.

They say follow your heart,
but never mention that out of it proceeds evil.
It can lead you to places you should've never known,
your own can leave you with so much scars.