Angel(s) in Disguise (MikaYuu)

CH 35

Third person point of view:

   After the kiss Mikaela and Yuuichiro shared, they shy away from each other. It is normal for them to feel a little bit awkward, as they aren't exactly used to kissing each other yet.

   Fortunately for Yuuichiro, Mikaela had slept and at the very least he didn't have to deal with too much embarrassment. Even so, he still can't help himself but getting flashbacks when he looks at the blonde even though the male is Mika, a twelve years old.

   Mika had talked to Yuuichiro himself to ask about how he is doing, and the raven was glad to say that he is completely fine. Mikael had managed to cheer him up, but he didn't tell Mika that. The outing together is somehow their little secret, though neither promises nor vows are made between of them to keep it a secret.

   However, Yuuichiro is quite worried of how Mikael had been acting. Mikael wakes up using the usual cycle, which is after Mika had fallen asleep. Knowing that it is Mikael, Yuuichiro flashes the blonde a bright smile and greets him.

   Mikael returns the gesture, but with a more light and gentle look. And after that, the blonde takes a seat near Yuuichiro, even so not right beside of the raven. The other male ignores the lack of closeness, despite remembering how much Mikael loves pestering and annoying him by invading his personal space.

   "So, have you given the gift to Mikaela yet?" The blonde asks, and the raven snorts at him. Mikael raises a questioning eyebrow, wondering why Yuuichiro laughs.

   The raven points at him. "You can't feel it around your neck? Mikaela said it practically chokes him." Yuuichiro questions, a little amused. Eyes blown a little wide in realization, Mikael touches his own neck to feel the choker that is hugging it. The blonde chuckles to himself before shrugging.

   "I don't know, i thought Mika would take it off." He says to Yuuichiro, and the raven seems to try remembering something. "He doesn't seems to care, or even look bothered of it. Like how you don't even notice it is there just now." Yuuichiro claims, making Mikael hums before once again shrugging. It is not important anyway.

  "Does Mikaela likes it?" The blonde questions. To Mikael's surprise, Yuuichiro blushes at his question. The blonde cocks an eyebrow at Yuuichiro, silently asking for an explanation.

   The raven shifts in his seat, before opening his mouth to answer. "He said he likes it and then.." he stops there, but he had already spilled too much to cover it up.

   "And then?" Mikael urges him. His mind goes back wandering around the memory of their kiss, successfully making him blush even harder. The blonde frowns when he says nothing, but doesn't push him on it. Somethings are better off hidden, anyway.

   "Nevermind, don't answer it." Mikael utters. He has a feeling that says he won't like it when Yuuichiro tells him. His chest feels tight, suffocating with something he had never felt before. Perhaps, it is jealousy?

He doesn't like it.

   And so, he rises from his seat and gives a quick smile to Yuuichiro. "I'll be in my room." He says. The raven is quite surprised of his sudden declaration, but hesitantly nods nonetheless. "Alright.. But are you okay?" Yuuichiro worriedly asks.

   Mikael, no matter how they don't talk to each other before, always stays with Yuuichiro. Wordlessly, and motionlessly. The raven would peek at the blonde while playing games, but Mikael usually just stare into space, or be on his phone while being in the same room as Yuuichiro. Not a word was spoken, but he is there.

Always has been.

   And that justify why Yuuichiro is feeling a little...  Dread that Mikael is going to walk away. The raven is used to Mikael's presence, though he pretended that the blonde in the same room as him is invisible way before their relationship escalated. Like he isn't even there. But of course, he just pretended so it looked like that.

   "Yes. Why wouldn't i be?" The blonde questions him in a monotone before walking away. Yuuichiro shakes his head though the blonde can't see him. Whatever the reason is, Yuuichiro doesn't know why Mikael is suddenly displeased of something.

No matter how long he had think about it, he can't figure it out.

   At first, the raven can't see through Mikael's actions. But the entire day, he had been alone. And that's when Yuuichiro realize that Mikael had avoided him on purpose. He decided that if he can't figure it out himself, he will personally ask Mikael for answers.

   The raven goes to Mikael's room, knocking the door. "Mikael? Can i come in?" He asks. A muffled 'yes' is heard, and he twists the doorknob without wasting a second.

   Mikael is on his bed, phone in his hand. That shows Yuuichiro clearly that the blonde isn't doing anything in particular, just chilling in the mean time while avoiding him. Yuuichiro quietly frowns. How rude of the blonde to do so.

  He closes the door and walks to Mikael's bed, sitting at the edge of it before facing the blonde. "Are you mad at me? Have i done something wrong?" Yuuichiro forwardly asks, not hiding his intention on confronting Mikael whatsoever.

   Mikael put his phone aside, and faces Yuuichiro. "Not at all. I am not mad at you, nor you did something wrong." The blonde admits. And that makes Yuuichiro feels confused.

   "Were you avoiding me?" The raven asks, once again being straightforward. Mikael shrugs, carefree. "Perhaps. I am not right now, though." He retorts. "Why are you here, asking me questions?" The blonde asks Yuuichiro before the male gets a chance to ask the reason why Mikael had avoided him.

   "Because you avoided me, duh." Yuuichiro states the matter of fact. And here he thought his intention is already as clear as crystal, because Yuuichiro never conceal it at all. He had acted pretty bold, is Mikael ignoring that too?

   "So basically, you missed me?" The blonde asks, quirking an eyebrow at the raven. The question hits Yuuichiro like a truck, and he quickly denies it. "What, no! I don't miss you at all, what the heck." The raven sputters out. It comes out messy, and he is not sure if Mikael would believe the statement.

   "Okay, sure. Believable for someone who confronts me for not talking to him for like what, five hours?" The blonde spats. Yuuichiro is about to argue, like of course he feels weird about it since they live under the same roof. But Mikael talks first, and he has to keep it in for a while.

   "Don't you think that you are attached, Yuuchan? You want me to be with you all the time, and you feel restless when i am not around." The blonde says and list out things which Yuuichiro actually felt. But it maddens the raven that Mikael knows exactly what he is feeling. And so, he denies it.

  "I am not attached to you." Yuuichiro grumbles, jutting his bottom lip out a little without realizing. The blonde throws him a half-hearted smile, which annoys him even more.

   "Okay, then. Not me. But that applies to Mikaela and Mika as well. You adores them, don't you? Your dear friends, too. " Mikael asks. Truth to be told, Yuuichiro can admit he loves someone to everyone but that someone.

   "You are right about that." Yuuichiro confesses, though there is one thing that is left out. The raven adores Mikael too. But he doesn't like feeding the blonde's ego, so he exclude that part. Mikael never asked, and so he doesn't find the need to suddenly blurt that out and embarrass himself.

   "Love yourself before you love others. Can't you see that people is hurting you for being too close to them?" Mikael asks, almost desperately. Yuuichiro lowers his head, thinking of his friends. He loves them, but they keep hurting him without even realizing.

   Mikael cradles Yuuichiro's face in his palms. "I can't tell you to stop loving, nor being gullible. Those things are natural." Mikael voices, staring into Yuuichiro's forest green eyes.

   "But please, hide it. If you can't, at least try to." The blonde pleads, making Yuuichiro's head spins. Thoughts are running across his mind wildly, and the most obvious one is that...

   "Why are you telling me this?" Yuuichiro asks, his voice lacing with endless confusion and constant worry. He holds Mikael's wrist, squeezing it slightly. Mikael finds himself taking a deep breath, before exhaling shakily.

This cruel world is not for someone like Yuuichiro.