Angel(s) in Disguise (MikaYuu)

CH 43

Third person point of view:

    The moment the front door creaks open, Mikael snaps his head to it finding Yuuichiro wordlessly making his way inside. The blonde squints, knowing that one look plastered on Yuuichiro's face very, very well.

   That expression is back, the one Yuuichiro always wear back when Mikael still observes him from a far. The face Yuuichiro makes when no one is around.

When he is alone.

   The raven makes his way to the couch where Mikael is sitting, before plopping down on it without uttering a word. He is not even looking at Mikael, it's like the blonde is not there. And once again, Yuuichiro acts like Mikael is invisible.

   They sit like that for god knows how long, Mikael staring at Yuuichiro while observing him to find absolutely nothing to note, and the raven staring at the blank, seemingly interesting wall. None of them speak up for at least ten minutes.

   And then Yuuichiro just scoots closer, to the point where his side is pressed against Mikael. The blonde doesn't get the time to question Yuuichiro's action when the raven lets his head rest on Mikael's shoulder. "... You are aware that I am Mikael, right?" The blonde asks, just to make sure which Yuuichiro replies with a short hum.

   Mikael exhales softly, before reaching out for Yuuichiro's hair to ruffle it a little bit. "Do you want to talk about it?" He asks the raven quietly. Something must have gone wrong during Yuuichiro's leave. And it must be terrible that Yuuichiro just decided to shut down his emotions.

   "I don't know. Can i?" The raven asks in a monotone, voice straight like a freshly dead person's heart rate monitor. "Of course. I'm all ears." Mikael assures, and Yuuichiro sighs weakly.

  "But wait. If you are going to cry, i don't want to hear it." Mikael quickly states, which Yuuichiro pays no mind to. He starts talking.

   "I will never get to eat Kimizuki's curry once more. Yoichi will stop pestering and checking on me me. Mitsuba will not nag me like the mother hen she is anymore. And Shinoa will not tease me ever again." Yuuichiro tells. Mikael's face shows confusion, which he rarely plaster across his face. But when it comes to Yuuichiro, the expression is not really a stranger to Mikael. "Why?" The blonde asks.

   Yuuichiro doesn't answer him, but instead, he keeps on talking, blabbering random things about his friends. "Yoichi is really nice, though some said that he actually isn't that innocent. Doesn't matter to me before, as he treated me kindly. Shinoa loves teasing me, and i hate her for that. But i find comfort in her presence, and she is really understanding." The raven goes on while Mikael devotedly listens.

   "Mitsuba sounds harsh most of the time, but the truth is that she just worry about me too much. Kimizuki is an asshole with a big softie heart. I bet he cry while watching Titanic. I don't even get to read the whole comic volume, damn it's frustrating." Yuuichiro says. Mikael still doesn't get it.

   "Why are you talking about your friends? Did something happened?" The blonde asks with concern. Did Yuuichiro's friends got into a car crash and die or something? Yuuichiro is acting really weird.

   "They had laughed when i told them someone stalked me. They don't believe me. Yoichi makes me look really mean. And Kimizuki believes that i only summon bad luck." And finally, the raven's voice cracks which makes Mikael widen his eyes.

   "Kimizuki said i was never his friend. M-mitsuba once called me an angel- but why is so hard for her to believe me?" Yuuichiro starts crying audibly, pathetic hiccups leaving his lips while his shoulder jumps once in a while and that makes Mikael panic. Uneasiness washes over the blonde's features as he tries to stop Yuuichiro's sobs but no avail.

   "H-hey, stop crying, damn it-" The blonde protests, but of course it doesn't help. And so Mikael pulls Yuuichiro into an embrace, stroking the raven's back with the intention of giving comfort. Yuuichiro sobs into his ear, and it makes Mikael's skin crawl. "Shh.. i told you i won't listen if you start to cry." The blonde hushes.

   "I hate seeing you cry." Mikael mumbles as the raven hiccups into his shoulder. "So please stop crying, Yuuchan." He pleads. It hurts him too when Yuuichiro weeps, crying his eyes out.

   Mikael slowly pulls away, holding Yuuichiro's face in his palms. The raven's cheeks are red, and wet with tears. The blonde wipes them off with his thumb, but they keep coming out. Mikael makes a face out of frustration, and without thinking, he crash their lips together.

   A muffled gasp comes out from Yuuichiro, but the blonde ignores it and close his eyes. However, just as quick as he closed them, they snap back open and Mikael jumps away from the raven, as if he just realize what he was doing.

   The blonde is shocked by his own action, lips parted in disbelief. He gives Yuuichiro no chance to ask about his action, and stands up before marching upstairs quickly.

  "Mikael, wait-!" He hears Yuuichiro calls out with a brittled sounding voice, but he only quicken his pace going up the stairs, almost hopping up on every step. His heart begs him to turn back around and comforts Yuuichiro. Shower him with hugs and kisses, all the affections that Yuuichiro had missed while living his lonely life.

   But Mikael is more scared of what he had done. He is not supposed to kiss Yuuichiro- The raven loves Mikaela for crying out loud. And he is not going to take advantage of that. The blonde enters his room and closes the door, groaning loudly.

   This is probably the worst impulsive thing he had done since living with Yuuichiro, and he absolutely despises it. And yet, he still craves for more. He wants to kiss the raven till he gasps for air, and feel Yuuichiro's skin under his hand. He wants to love Yuuichiro the same way Mikaela is able to love the raven.

   Mikael is raging with desire. He can't believe he had never touched Yuuichiro, considering the fact that he used to break into the raven's room while he was asleep. Or so he thought, asleep.

    His mind wanders to Yuuichiro downstairs. Is he still crying? Is he hurt because of him? Does Yuuichiro hates him now? Those questions ponders inside his brain, making him feel slightly dizzy and nauseated. He paces around his room anxiously, not knowing what to do. He prays to god wishing for Yuuichiro not to hate him. He earned Yuuichiro's trust, and he don't want to crush it. Anything but that.

   After what feels like centuries, Mikael decided to try calming himself. He sits on his bed and lay down, wanting to fall asleep and let another persona take control already. Mika, perhaps. But he can't.

   He had been staring at the clock on the wall, watching time flies away slowly. And just like that, he one hour passed. He still failed to fall asleep, and so he decided to check on Yuuichiro again. The raven is not in his room, he knows. There is no sound of a closing door.

   And so Mikael gets up, just when he twists the doorknob, his door pushes back by itself, as if someone is pushing on his door though not forcefully. Mikael's grip on the door stays firm, and he peeks outside of his door to find Yuuichiro leaning against it while sitting on the floor. The raven is sleeping.

   Mikael exhales softly, eyes softening. How long have Yuuichiro been asleep there? The blonde failed on hearing his footsteps. Careful not to wake him up, Mikael holds Yuuichiro's shoulder to prevent the raven from falling and pushes the door open widely.

   He throws Yuuichiro's arms around his neck, and lifts the raven up to carry him to bed. He is not letting Yuuichiro sleep in front of his door, no matter how badly he wants to stay away from the raven.

   But when he laid the male down on his bed, Yuuichiro refuses to let go of him. And so he tries to break free from the raven's hold by force, only to be yanked down to fall on the bed. Having absolutely zero clue of what is happening and is caught off guard, the blonde yelps as he falls onto the bed beside Yuuichiro.

   The raven wrap his arms around Mikael, and just by that time, Mikael comes to a realization. "Months of stalking experiences, and yet you still fail to find out if i am exactly asleep." Yuuichiro mutters displeasedly.

Yuuichiro wasn't asleep.