Taking A Bullet

Chapter 18

Chapter 18:

Lily's P.O.V:

Wow, my head is spinning. Opening my eyes, I looked around me and realised I wasn't at my own house... Or in my own bed... Oh God, did I get abducted? No... wait, I know this room... This is Damon's room. Phew that's a relief. I put my head into my hands, trying to stop the pain.

Crap! I can't remember anything from last night!!! What happened again?! Oh that's right, I was going out to dinner with Melody, Damon and Jarrad... Then what happened? I saw someone, but I just can't remember who. DAMN THIS MEMORY LOSS!!!!!

There was a knocking at the door that brought me out of my concentration.

"Ahh...Come in?" My voice sounded fragile. Why did it sound like that for? It usually only sounds like that when I've been crying...

"How are you feeling?" Damon asked as he entered the room, he looked sad for some reason?

"Um... I'm a little confused, but other then that, I'm good." I said while smiling at him. Damon's expression still didn't change. Why was he sad? I don't understand.

"Do you remember anything from last night?" He sounded very concerned.

"Well I remember going out to dinner... And I saw someone... But I can't remember who?" Hmmm... Who was the person I saw?! Damon looked even more concerned and sad. I raised a questioning eyebrow at him, urging him to tell me what I'm missing. He let out a heavy sigh. Oh no this can't be good.

"Lily, I don't know how to tell you this, but..." He stopped, unsure whether he should tell me or not.

"Just tell me Damon, I'll be fine." I lied while smiling at him. Truth is, I'm scared shitless about what he is going to tell me. He let out another sigh before continuing.

"Lily you attacked a girl that was with Harry last night and then attacked Harry. If I didn't stop you, you would have done to Harry what you did to the girl..." He trailed off, but I'm stunned. I can't even move. I'm trying to tell my brain to say something, but nothing is coming out of my mouth. All I can think about is, I did it again. I saw red.

"Lily are you okay?" Damon was really concerned now, because I can't even respond to him. He reached his hand out to me and cupped my face.

"Don't worry okay? Everything is okay now." He tried to reassure me, but it wasn't working.

"D-did I k-kill someone?" I felt like dying inside. If I had killed someone again... I, I wouldn't know what to do with myself... Damon's expression was very soft and sincere now, which gave me a little hope.

"No Lily, you didn't." Damon smiled at me, and I was happy that I didn't, but

I'm still upset that I saw red again. Why? Why does this happen to me? Tears sprung to my eyes and a pain began in my chest.

"Why? Why do I do this? Why does it happen to me?" I began to sob into my hands. Damon patted my back softly.

"Hey everything is okay now, you don't need to worry okay?" He tried soothing me and it was beginning to work, until I thought about Melody.

"Oh God!" I started hysterically crying now "IS MELODY OKAY?!" Oh God please, please tell me I didn't hurt her again!

"Hey... Shhhh... She is perfectly fine, not even a scratch." Damon smiled at me. Oh thank God!

"I mean, who do you think washed and changed you?" He had a sly smile creeping at the corner of his lips. I looked down at myself. Oh... I'm not in my dress... I looked up to Damon and his eyes were travelling all over my body. I slapped his shoulder.