Mystifying the Captain (Steve X OC)

Chapter 13 - Reaching out

(Cassia POV)

It's been a couple of weeks. Steve has decided to move into my room with me. I agreed. He has been keeping me stable. Although his OCD is really annoying. I'm starting to move things just slightly to see him freak out. It's so funny. He doesn't stop me because he says he loves my laugh.

Wanda has to drain me of energy once a day. We found out after two days my powers come back, I blew up the coffee maker over breakfast once. It's making her tired, but she doesn't complain.

Thor hasn't come back yet. I miss him. His hugs were the best. I hope he comes back soon with a cure for my problem.

I am back to having someone with me at all times. Just to make sure I don't end up in the same room with Bucky. I miss him so much, but the feeling we get when we are near each other is intoxicating and dangerous. I completely forget about Steve and just think about having Bucky all over me.

Since my voice is still gone for god or goddess knows why. I have been helping everyone out on Hydra cases, sorting files, looking for their hidden locations and agents.

Tony has been giving me constant tests to try and figure out why Bucky is effecting me so much. He had a theory before but I didn't think it was credible. He thought that because Bucky was so obsessed with me I fed off of it, sending it back to him and causing and infinite loop. So whenever we get near each other I walk right into the loop and power up.

Sam and Steve give me updates on Bucky. They aren't great, they try to spare me the truth of how he is doing all the time. 

Bucky and I have decided to act like children and hide notes for each other around the tower. At least we can keep contact in some way. Once I thought Bruce found a note Bucky left me. I freaked the hell out and almost dropped my ice cream trying to get Bruces' attention away from it. It was a good idea too because Bucky decided this was the time he would confess his love for me. 

I have a feeling Steve hasn't told him about our feelings for each other...It makes me feel so bad. I care for Buck so much. I'm not sure if it's love. I don't even think you can love two people at once. Maybe it's just lust and pheromones and a lot of liking....ugh what the hell am I going to do about these boys?

I try and concentrate on work. I clean up after the kids, Clint and Sam, lord they are messy. And I wait.

Okay I am bored of waiting. I go to my room and get dressed for training. Steve is out on a mission with Nat and Sam. Clint is supposed to keep an eye on me but hes asleep on the couch after eating too many Twislers. It's the afternoon so I know Bucky won't be in the gym. It's my chance to be alone and think.

I quietly head to the gym. Walking in with my headset on I don't hear anyone. Until I feel it. It tugged at my chest like a chain. I slowly look up from my fighting gloves and see him hitting a punching bag. He is shirtless and sweaty. Grunting and growling at it as if they had a fight. I notice he had cut his hair, it flows over his head like Steve's hair only dark. My breath hitches watching his muscles stretch and tighten with every move he does. 

I can feel myself getting wetter by the second. My mouth open and gasping for more. I try to tell myself to leave, to walk away. But I can't, my body moves on it's own towards him, pulling my headsets off to hear him better. My heart races as I catch his smell, Petrachor and sweat. 

He notices movement near him and turns to me. His eyes tug at my chest more, so beautiful and blue.

"You shouldn't be here doll, I mean Cass" He says between his broken breadth. I nod but I keep moving forward. I notice he doesn't move away. He wants this as much as I do. The tips of my fingers start flickering blue. He looks at them then looks at me.

"We can't do this to Steve" He takes in a deep breath but still doesn't move. It's like hes trying to talk himself out of what's happening. 

I am so close to him now that any movement means we touch. Both of us breathing heavily staring into each others eyes.

"Fuck" he says just before he grabs me and picks me up, kissing me deeply. I wrap my legs around his waist. He pushes me against the wall squeezing my thighs with such force I know I'll bruise. I start feeling my powers build up. His lust and desire feeding my core. 

"Fuck Cass I need you." He whispers against my lips. He bites my lower lip so hard he cuts me. I drag my nails against his back moaning with the pleasure he feeds into me. He slams one hand against the wall next to me unable to handle himself. He bites down on my neck forcefully trying to remove my pants just enough for him to slip in.

"WHAT IN THE ACTUAL FUCK?" We hear from across the room. But I can't stop, I'm glued to him by our energy, by my power. He tries putting me down but I keep kissing him unwilling to stop.

It takes Clint pinning me down away from Bucky to bring my head back to normal. My breath heavy and my heart racing. I realize what I just did. I start crying. Bucky has one hand on his hip and one on his mouth. I can hear him cursing himself for letting me get so close. I want to tell him it's not him, it's me, but I still can't speak. 

I slide down to the floor hugging my legs and crying into my knees. My whole body shaking with power, blue magic bouncing around me. I should be ashamed of myself. I'm such a disgusting person. Why would I do this to Steve?

I let out a primal scream and my magic burst through the room knocking everything it can down and throwing Clint and Bucky nearly out the room. I stay there crying softly. I look up at them as they look at me in fear. I'm a monster. Thor should have taken me to Asguard. At least there they have cells that would hold me. At least there I would be light years away from Bucky. Only, it means I would be away from Steve.

Something comes over me at that moment. The realization that I am destroying this family. I raise one hand up, palm facing down. I concentrate my powers into an orb. I put in everything I have left in me. All the energy I could muster. I look up at Bucky, I mouth "I'm sorry."

I can see his eyes change when he realizes what I'm about to do. He tries to rush over to me but Clint stops him. They yell for help, for Wanda. I can't hear them anymore. As long as I am asleep I won't hurt anyone. As long as I am gone they will be okay. They will be safe. I drain every ounce of magic, of energy, of life I have into the orb. I shed a tear and mouth "tell Steve I love him" I send the orb away with the last bit of strength I have and I happily fall into a coma.