Call Me Death (Fallen Series #4)

Chapter 26: Do You Know You're My Miracle?

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Hi, Enchanters! It's been a while. Here's an update as promised. I hope you'll like this one! Enjoy reading and stay safe! I love y'all.

Yours truly,
Mikagami Yuki

Song title:
Statue by Lil Eddie

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Reverie's POV

Funny, isn't it? How you invest your time and effort to know someone with every details and pieces of their soul, just to end up being strangers again. I always wonder what it feels like to love someone, pero hindi ko alam na ganito pala kasakit kapag nawala na.

I just feel so empty. I feel so lost with the things that were supposed to be my way back home. 'Yong dapat na tahimik kong buhay, nagulo. Or should I say, it got even better but ended up worse than I imagined?

It's been, I don't know, three or four weeks? Since that incident in the hospital. The usual life I had came back. The boring one. The shallow one. Walang Death na naghihintay pagkalabas ko ng eskuwelahan. Walang Death na ginugulo 'yong buhok ko at tatango kapag tinanong ko siya kung sasamahan niya ba ako sa susunod na weekend. Most of all, there's no Death that is looking for me in the midst of the crowds. I miss him.

"Reverie!" Lumapit sa akin si Mommy nang makita niyang nakaupo ako sa couch ng living room at nagbabasa ng libro. "Have you decided what dress you'll wear?"

Kumunot naman 'yong noo ko. "Dress? Para saan?"

"Next saturday na 'yong Masquerade Ball ng Crosswood Town! Hindi ba't pinapapunta ka ng Tito Lucian at Tito Kiel mo," aniya kaya naman bigla kong naalala.

Last weekend, we visited Tita Allison back to the mansion. She's the wife of Tito Kiel, ang best friend ni Daddy at ni Tito Lucian. Mag-best friend kasi si Mommy at Tita Allison kaya naman kapag may oras ay pa lagi namin siyang binibisita o hindi kaya ay kami naman ang bibisitahin niya.

"About that..." Ibinaba ko 'yong binabasa kong libro at tumingin ulit kay Mommy. "... Hindi po ako pupunta."

"Huh? Anak, isa 'yon sa pinakahinihintay mo, 'di ba? You've waited for that for how many years dahil eighteen years old at pataas lang ang puwedeng maka-attend doon," ani Mommy na halatang nag-aalala kung bakit biglang nagbago 'yong isip ko.

Actually, wala naman na talaga akong balak pang pumunta roon. All the things that I find interesting back then, felt so boring now to me. Hindi ko alam, I just can't find the reason why I feel this way now.

"Mom," I called her out and my voice cracked. "I'll be okay, right?" Nagulat siya dahil hindi niya alam kung bakit ako umiiyak. I never told them how I feel, that I'm hurting inside, because this pain, I chose this. Pinili kong mahalin si Death kahit alam ko 'yong kapalit. Alam kong dito rin hahantong ang lahat. Both of us have to let go, yet I chose to stay. I chose him, yet he chose to save me.

Niyakap ako ni Mommy. I can hear my sobs echoing in every corner of the living room. Death, come back to me. Please.

"Anak, naiintindihan ko kung hindi mo kayang sabihin sa akin kung bakit ka nasasaktan ngayon," Mommy said while caressing the back of my head. "Pero kung ano man 'yan, magagawa mo 'yang lagpasan katulad ng mga pagsubok na napagdaanan mo noon."

I cried and cried like a child in my mother's arms. When was the last time I cried to her like this? Back when I was in middle school, I guess? All the bullying and the curses people have inflicted on me, it was too heavy. A miracle? That's a lie. I am no miracle. Tama ang mga tao na nasa paligid ko. I bring death itself everywhere I go.