Call Me Death (Fallen Series #4)

Chapter 27: Fading

Reverie's POV

"Do you know? You're my miracle," he uttered those words but he left me there. Standing and watching him as he walks away from me.

And I just closed my eyes as I feel my heart breaking into pieces. Sinungaling. Napakasinungaling mo, Death.

I'm your miracle, then why are you leaving me? Why do you have to let me go when I chose to fight for what we have? This is so unfair. So freaking unfair.

"Reverie..." tawag sa akin ni Dad bago ako lumabas ng pinto ng bahay. I looked back and I could see how worried he is. "... Are you sure you're okay? Anak, puwedeng-puwede kang huwag munang pumasok. Kauusapin ko 'yong teacher mo—"

"Dad, I'm okay." I sighed. Besides the bruises all over my body and the sudden feeling of blacking out, I'm just tired. I'm so exhausted and all I could think about is him. I miss him.

"Sabi ko naman sa 'yo, pumunta muna tayo sa doktor," ani Mommy at lumapit sa akin. Sinapo niya 'yong ulo ko para tingnan kung mainit ba ako pero umiwas ako. I don't want her to know.

They don't understand. No science and doctor can explain my state right now, because I brought myself into this situation and I'm not regretting it. If it's him, then I won't regret every single decision I've made.

"Papasok na po ako," nagpaalam na ako sa kanila at lumabas na ako ng bahay bago pa sila magsalita. Naglakad ako sa tahimik na daan and everything feels so new.

Come to think of it, I've always been alone before Death came. Mag-isa akong pumapasok, mag-isa akong umuuwi. Even car rides and road trips were new to me. But when Death came, it all felt natural. All the car rides, the searching in places, the road trips, it felt so real to me. When are we going to come back to how we used to be, Death? Because I miss us. I miss you.

Buong araw akong nakatingin lang sa bintana ng classroom. Kahit kinakausap ako ng mga kaibigan ko ay parang wala akong naririnig. They also asked me if I'm okay, napansin din siguro nila ang biglaang bagsak ng katawan ko at buong araw din akong matamlay.

"Sasama ka ba, Reverie?" tanong ni Bea nang mag-uwian na. "Kakain kami sa bagong bukas na coffee shop sa bayan."

I quickly shook my head. "I'm tired. Diretso uwi na ako. Ingat kayo," sabi ko at naglakad na paalis. Dati, ako pa 'yong nagyayaya sa kanila pero ngayon ay wala na akong lakas para magyaya o makipag-usap sa kahit na sino.

"Reverie Tyler..." Napatingin ako sa gilid ko nang may magsalita. There's no one in the hallway but us. It's a girl whose beauty is undefined. Her gaze dropped on me and I can tell that she was here for something. "You look so beautiful. As expected. Your Dad is one of the princes of hell after all."

Kumunot 'yong noo ko. The way she said those words as if she knows me so well and even my Dad. "Who are you?"

"It doesn't matter who I am." She started walking closer to me and I could already feel that she was not a human. She's like Death and Ariel, I can feel that aura coming from her and I can sense danger. "What matters here is your life."

"What do you mean—" I was cut off when someone knocked me out from behind and the next thing I knew, someone was carrying me and I couldn't see who it was.

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"Wake up, darling..." someone said that made me open my eyes. Nang iminulat ko ang mata ko ay natigilan ako nang makita ko si Mikhail. Nasa likod niyang nakatayo si Ariel at 'yong babae na kausap ko kanina. "No matter how much I look at you, your beauty just don't fade. Look at you, bleeding and what's this?"

Hinawakan niya 'yong braso ko at napangiwi ako nang diniinan niya 'yon. "Mikhail, stop it!" sigaw ng babae sa kaniya na ikinatawa lang mi Mikhail.

"Fine! Since you told me not to hurt her, I'll follow your ways." Tumayo si Mikhail at lumayo siya sa akin. Lumingon naman ako sa paligid at napansin kong nasa isang pamilyar na lugar kami.

This is the same rooftop that Death and I first went. This is the place where I told him that I want to save people.

"He should be here by now," sabi ni Ariel kaya sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. I know who he's talking to. Alam kong si Death 'yong hinihintay nila.

"What are you planning to do with him? Ariel, why are you betraying Death?!" sigaw ko sa kaniya pero tumingin lang siya sa akin na para bang mali ako.

"Hindi mo naiintindihan, Reverie. We're trying to save him!" sigaw niya sa akin pabalik.

Kumunot 'yong noo ko. "Saving from what?"

"From you," Ariel uttered that made me look at him with my confused look. "You know it to yourself too, don't you? Death has a black spirit lurking on him."

Napalunok ako at 'yong takot na nararamdaman ko ay dumoble. It's like I know what they're going to say but I just can't accept it to myself.

"I-I don't understand—" I was cut off when Seraphina spoke.

"You and Death cannot be together." Those were the most painful words I've ever heard in my entire life.

I've never been this selfish. Buong buhay ko, wala akong ibang ginawa kung hindi unahin 'yong ibang tao bago 'yong sarili ko. I didn't even think about myself, but when Death came and I fell for him, I realized that I will do everything for this man to stay with me, even if it means fighting against everything that is making me lose him.

"If your connection with Death goes on, he'll vanish and--"

"That's enough, Seraphina!" Sabay-sabay kaming napatingin sa dumating at tuluyan na akong natigilan. There's Death, standing a few steps away from me. He looks like he rushed just to get here in time. Bakit? Why do you have to come here and save me when you know there's nothing good going to happen to you?

Naiintindihan ko na ngayon kung bakit. He's trying to protect himself the whole time and here I am, being so selfish. He wants to keep living, he wants to be okay but every time that he's with me, he's losing his life.

Now I know why the sun and the moon only meet once then separate again because the moon blocks out the light that the sun gives. Every time that happens, the sun fades and only darkness could be seen.

Death, I can't just come into your life and illuminate you with all the darkness I have. I can't be that selfish. You're right. How am I supposed to show the world that we're not bad timing when you're the sun and I am the moon?

Tuluyan nang tumulo 'yong luha sa mata ko. Nasasaktan ako. It hurts like hell when you just want to be with someone yet you're like parallel lines that just won't meet. We can't ever be together.

"Give Reverie back to me," Death said. "Give my girl back to me."

"But she's the reason why you're fading, Death! She's the very reason why you lost your power and why you had to go through all those bullshits! Just why? Why are you doing this to yourself--" Death cut the girl off.

"Because I love her!" I was stunned but the tears keep on streaming down from my eyes. "And no matter how this love hurts us, there's always going to be a part of me that will love her with all that's left in me."

I watched him as he unravels the truth of how he really felt towards me. And I realized, maybe. Just maybe, the sun and the moon could make a collision and that would bound us from breaking but we still choose to unite, because that's what our love is.

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