Our Heart's Desire (gxg) (lesbian)

Chapter 11

*SMUT Warning*

LANA

"Baby, God! Shit! Just like that," I moaned.

"Like this?" She dug her fingers deeper inside my wet core wiggling a storm inside with just the right motion.

"Fuck, don't stop. Yes, yes..." my hips began to thrust the air. She was between my legs flicking my clit with her soft wet velvet tongue. "God, I'm going to miss you when you fly out later. I just got you back." I groaned.

"I'm going to miss you too, baby." She said between her licks.

My hands were tied to my bed frame. I've never been tied to the bed while I fucked someone, but she requested that she does this to me and I agreed. Mentally, I think it's payback that I left her and she's punishing me for it. But, I have to admit it felt so good. The fact that I couldn't touch her, I couldn't resist her, and I couldn't touch myself brought the euphoric feeling that was unbearable, but I fucking love every bit of it.

"Baby, I'm going to cum again, Fuck..." I yelled.

"Louder, baby, I can't hear you."

"Baby, my neighbors."

"Let them hear us. Let them know how fucking good we fuck." She deviously grinned. "Now, be a bad girl and scream my name. Say it!" she demanded.

She increased her speed. Two long slender fingers inside me hitting my G-spot with every thrust. "Fuck, I'm about to squirt, baby. It feels so fucking good. SYDNEY....."

She pulled her fingers out just as I squirted. I arched my back and while my juice ejected out. Sydney started sucking on m boobs that sent jolts of electricity all over my body. I'm fucking tied to the bed frame and she's enjoying it. She's enjoying it all.

"I know you did this to punish me, right now, babe!" I say still quivering.

"How do you know?"

"I said I'm fucking sorry I left you 4 years ago... Ok?!"

She began to untie my hands, "Did you regret it?" When she finished she laid down beside me with hurt in her voice staring at the ceiling.

I turned to her and wrapped my arms around her solid abs and muttered, "Everyday.. I thought about you every fucking day and I feel like shit all the fucking time." I lifted my head to her face then slowly pulled her face to look me in the eyes. I caressed her face seeing the distress I caused her those 4 years. I can tell she was thinking about it; the hurt that she felt. I know it's going to take awhile for her to trust me again, but I could see the love she has for me was so much stronger that I have hope we would get through this. I'll do what I can to show her how truly I was sorry everyday for the rest of my life.

I see the tears slowly escaping her eyes. Even if we fucked through the night like nothing happened, deep down she still felt the pain. I caused that; I did that. She took all the courage she had and spoke faintly, "You know, I needed you. Especially, when my mom died of cancer. I had no one to turn to. No one to talk to. No comfort; no one who cared. I did what I know best and drank, smoke, fucked the pain away. I fucking needed you, Lan. I even called your dad."

"I know and I feel guilty, babe, but you have to understand, I wasn't ready to face you." I said morosely.

"It was fucking two years after you left me, Lan. I waited for anything--a call, a text even. At least to know you cared enough, even if you weren't there. That fucking hurts, Lan."

I couldn't help, but cry and pull her into my arms. How could I have not realized how much pain she was in. I traumatized her. What the fuck have I done?

"You won't leave me again, right Lan? You won't leave me to fend by myself?"

"I'm never going to leave you again, babe... Shhhh... I'm here now.." I cloaked her tighter in my arms and she enveloped me with hers.

She softly spoke through her crying eyes, "I don't think I could stand another minute if you left me again. I think I would die. You are my heart, baby, and the day you left me, you took my heart with you. All I felt was darkness, sadness, remorse. I couldn't love anyone; I couldn't even love myself because the one I loved the most took my fucking heart and tore it to pieces. So please, I'm begging you, don't do that to me again."

That brought tears flowing uncontrollably from my dark brown orbs. My angelic beauty before me, I marred with my action. I tore her apart. The once happy go lucky girl I knew, I broke. I resented everything. This was going to be a long road for us. She lost trust in me. I know she's trying hard to fight the feelings through her thick skin.

"I'll never again leave you, my love. You're it. You're all that I want. I'm so fucking sorry. I should have talked to you, but instead I ran. I regret it everyday and I will regret it for the rest of my life."

She pressed harder into me. Our naked bodies bring out all the bare truth, genuineness of our feelings. We may be have just found each other once again. And we might have moved fast to call each other girlfriends, but it also felt right. We were going to fix this. I'm going to fix the mess I had done to her. I'm going to piece together her heart. She comes before mine by the cause of mine. Right now, she would be my priority in this life. I owe this much to her because never once did she leave me in those 8 years. She witness my love life in high school and stood by me and the moment I felt a strong attraction to her, I left her. I will be her heart again.