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Chapter 7

I woke up with a huge headache. I was wearing the same dress as yesterday. I guess, I was too tired, to do anything but sleep. I still can't believe, that actually happened.

Me and Nash, started leaning in. We got closer and closer. I stopped leaning in. He noticed and looked disappointed.

I just couldn't go with kissing him. My mind was saying no. My heart was saying yes. I chose to listen to my mind.

"I'm sorry, Nash. I just can't go through with it" I apologized.

"No. Its fine. I shouldn't of tried to kiss you, anyways" He said starting to distant himself from me.

"Nash, don't do this. Don't become distant" I said.

Nash was still my best friend. Even if we weren't of the best terms. I didn't want him to start pushing me away. I didn't want to lose him.

"Ry. This is whats best. I can't just be friends with you" Nash stated.

"Why not? What else could we be?" I asked him.

I was so confused. It all happened so fast.

"You really don't see it... do you?" He remarked.

"See what?" I asked him.

"Just don't worry about. We just need to stay away from each other. I'll continue doing vines and youtube videos. You'll continue, doing whatever you do. Lets just stay away from each other" he said. I was tearing up.

"Nash. Why? What are you trying to say? Do you not wanna be friends anymore? Do you even care?" I asked him.

"Thats the problem. I care too much. I'm not doing this because I don't care. I'm doing this because you don't" Nash stated.

"Nash, what the fuck are you talking about? Of course, I fucking care. Do you think, I would be out here if I didn't care?" I snapped.

"Ryder, you just don't get it" Nash remarked.

"Then help me understand, Nash" I yelled at him.

"Do you really wanna know?" He snapped.

"Yes!" I yelled back.

"Fine. I fucking like you Ryder! I have ever since, I met you. I still do and I probably always will. I tried getting over you and I can't. Is that what you wanted know" Nash yelled. I couldn't respond. He walked away and I just sat there thinking what just happened.

My brother's best friend. My best friend. He likes me. And I don't like him back. At least I don't think, I do. Maybe, I might feel a little something for him. But, I don't know. I've never liked anyone before.

All the guys in my school were asses. I never liked any of them. How am I suppose to know, if I like someone or not?

I've always been that person, that never expected anything from anyone. But that changed. Now, I see why I was better in New Jersey.

I didn't have a heart. So, no one could break it. It was better that way. But things changed, when I got here. And I'm having a hard time accepting it.

I got out of bed and hopped in the shower. Once I got out, I did my daily morning routine. I texted Allison telling her I was going over her house soon.

I grabbed a snapback and my penny board and headed to Allison's house.

"Hey" I exclaimed. Walking into her house.

"Hey. What happened?" Allison asked.

"Me and Nash almost kissed last night" I said.

"Oh my god" Allison said shocked