We strive for familiarity but crave uncertainty
Is it faulty?
To crave something unfamiliar? Is it a sin?
To crave something what you thought was out of reach?
To crave something you thought you didn't deserve?
"Forward," my mind telling me over and over again
Every time I thought of you, it kept telling me to forget you
It's sad how we never get what we want
How we accept unwanted, unexpected lies
How it shouldn't have been a lie
How it was avoidable
At times I look back, I ask myself what I could've done wrong
And why you weren't telling me anything
Was I at fault?
Am I at fault?
Now I carry the burden of leaving
The burden of only wanting something more for myself
The burden to be the motivation of your change
The burden of you being better for someone else
and even if you offered yourself to me multiple times over again
I can't trust you anymore
You've broken me far too many times
I wish you the best in life
I hope you find the one
I hope time takes us somewhere we belong
