Tommyinnit Angst/Fluff one shots

22. NEED OF THERAPY ALERT! (PA)

Tommy's mind is fucked up and his parents are the cause of it.

So in this Tommy is a girl and his name is Tiffany and he wants to cut his hair but is afraid on what his parents will say so he cuts his hair himself.

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Tommy's point of view

Those bastards. I can't believe just because I don't pick up my hair, they said 'If you continue this we're going to have your head shaved disgusting freak' but now that I fucking cut it they say 'We asked you three times, and calmly too, if you wanted to cut your hair above shoulder length'

I was up to my mirror and say "Well, guess what? I'm asexual, Lesbian, and depressed. I also have a soft heart, an eating disorder, dysmorphia, and anxiety." I pace around the room to help express my stupid emotions because my stupid hands love to stupidly move.

"How the fuck would they like that they haven't been paying attention to me for so long that it took them four days to notice my hair was cut and they still haven't found out for 2 years about everything else? The eating disorder doesn't count though. The eating disorder I have had since I was 5 because of child neglect and mentally abusive parents who don't give a shit about their child's health. They also call me fat, ugly, worthless, and a mistake so why the hell would I love you when I've been faking emotions for 2 years yet you still don't pay attention to."

"Wasn't there something else? What was it again? Right, you remind me of my past mistakes and don't even pay attention on how much it affects me. You also tell EVERYONE my mistakes. It's bullshit! You act like you know everything about me when you didn't know I was bullied for 6 years by my 'Friends' they pushed my face against the rocks on the playground when it was hot, and forced me to always take the blame for stuff."

My sobs quiet down to nothing, so I start talking again. Letting it all out is the best way for it to stay away longer.

"I bet that's in all your old ass years of living with me, you've noticed that I grab a knife every day and trace it over my heart begging myself to do it but then I remember how much you will miss me. But, no, you will never miss me because I always get low grades on everything. The last state test I had a 98 but then I dropped down to a 78 and om the reading I got a 94 and then it dropped down to an 85.

It is all my fault since because I didn't pay attention to my online classes. And I don't want to be a boy. I just want to wear baggy clothes instead of dresses and skirts that show off my body, making me feel like everyone is judging me. And those stupid shirts that are so tight you can see it move to the besting of your heart? Fuck those. I'd rather kill myself because of that than because of me hating myself."

I take deep breaths and start to cry so I get my comfort stuffed animal and hug it. I then wrap myself with a blanket and jump on my bed