Tommyinnit Angst/Fluff one shots

13. Too forgiving (PA)

Tommy forgives anyone who wronged him and is very sympathetic for those who have been turned against by others and tries to help them as much as he can

and even if he wasn't in the wrong and he was fighting with somebody else he would always think that he is in the wrong and discipline himself by writing all the things down that he believes he did wrong and then reading it over and over again which makes him think that nothing he does is right

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Tommy's point of view*

I found out Wilbur is going to blow up someplace but I don't know where, I just saw him with a bunch of tnt talking to someone or maybe even himself

'If anything blows up It's my fault what if someone gets hurt just because I did nothing about it!' I start hyperventilating because of the guilt I already feel by not telling anyone

Dad knocks on my door which makes me calm down

Well he isn't necessarily my dad. He's a father figure to Me, Wilbur, and Techno. He made sure we felt safe when we were all abandoned but guilt eats me whenever I see him because it reminds me I will never be as kind as him or even be able to help him one bit so I do as much as I can every single day

I go to the door and open it "Yeah dad"

He chuckled as he ruffled my hair and said "I told you not to call me dad, and dinner is ready but Tech made it so it might be too...red" he said for a lack of a better word

"Okay!" I said as I jumped up and down because of how excited I am

Techno ain't the only one who has voices wanting blood I just think that he's better than me so he should get more attention

Also instead of killing animals or people I just get paint. Yes, I know it is toxic but think of it as a punishment for being an attention seeker who is useless! Nobody has to feels bad for me because they never know about it!

Well I actually might be more dangerous because the voices don't want to stop until I drink a few gallons so that's the main reason why paint is so bad. I forgot if Techno eats blood or not, I haven't really been paying attention because of Wilbur with I the bomb

I run downstairs and see delicious looking steak that's cooked and is dowsed in red stuff that looks like blood...creepy

I do eat it because this is way better than eating toxic paint everyday

I taste the food more and this red stuff tastes delicious "Tech, what's this red stuff?"

"SHIT" he yells as he grabs my plate from me and says "Sorry, it's a bit of blood that I took from Wil"

I start to shake as Techno and Wilbur start talking to each other

'I-I ate Wil's blood you liked it no no no no no no no I can't. Drink more. NO' I take deep breathes as everyone else starts eating

Wilbur is participating in the conversations we have but he feels so distant so I get up and hug him

He smiles softly but then it becomes a smirk "So the big man is clingy? Who knew"

I pout as he starts teasing me more "shut uuuup" I say trying to get Wil to stop

He still seems lonely but I am happy I get to see his smile again although I'm still freaking out about the blood and it will take a lot to have him forgive me

A week later

I really hope Wil is okay because he hasn't spoken to anyone in forever and I would barge into his room but he's locked everything

For some reason I am the only one that is worrying about him. Techno and dad just think that he's "Going through a phase" and it annoys me that they think that but they have enough to worry about

This is about the 20th time I have knocked on the door today and still no answer but then I hear his door unlock and then I was pulled in the the door was immediately closed and locked again

"Look, either you stop annoying me or join me. I know that you saw the tnt and you better not tell" I am scared because Wilbur has never acted like this

"W-what are you blowing up" I ask, still afraid that he might kill me if I don't answer correctly

"I am going to blow up Manburg"

I start to think that he's lying "No, we created that place. You wouldn't blow it up. You can't, we love it" I say trying to convince him no... convince myself that he is lying

"What Tommy? You want to disappoint me? I thought you were a better brother- I take that back, you aren't even good enough to be looked at. Just help me and maybe, just maybe, I consider thinking of you as a mediocre human being but for now you are just a disappointment. A burden, so why don't you fix it? You always end up making everything worse but right now you can fix it, fix it all. All you have to do it help me and I will forgive everything you have done to me"

I start shaking and end up crying. Wilbur pulls me into a hug and rubs my back "Don't worry, if you help me I'll be your friend. If you help me maybe somebody will love you, maybe dad will even acknowledge you as a son just don't worry. You'll be safe with me and I will keep you safe until I die" his last sentence made me drop to the floor crying even louder

"O-okay" I managed to say between sobs "I-I'll help"

It can't go wrong...can it?

Time skip
Aproval
The loud noises of the bombs are hurting my ears "WIL PLEASE STOP" I scream out trying to help him

"YOU WANTED THIS RIGHT. YOU WANT LOVE, APPROVAL, AND TO BE PROTECTED WELL GUESS WHAT. YOU'LL NEVER GET IT, I LIED. YOU WILL NEVER BE LOVED BECAUSE YOU ARE A HORRIBLE PERSON, A DISEASE THAT EVERYONE WANTS GONE" and then he starts laughing like a maniac

I start crying uncontrollably and then I feel hands pulling me

I look up and see Tubbo pulling me out I say nothing until I remember how close Wilbur is to the TNT "WAIT, LET ME GO BACK WILBUR HE-" "TOMMY HE DID THIS HE DESERVES TO DIE" I try to get out of his grip but am too weak due to Wilbur hurting me whenever I do something wrong, which was very often

"B-but Tubbo, It's my fault! It's all my fault, I knew this was going to happen and and an-" "TOMMY HE MANIPULATED YOU WHY CAN'T YOU GET THAT THROUGH YOUR STUPID SKULL. YOU CAN'T GIVE EVERYBODY THE BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT YOU SELFISH PRICK"

I start begging and trying desperately to get out of his grasp but he wouldn't let go then there was another explosion...it was right infront of Wilbur and the laughing came to an end

Snap

Something in me snapped before I passed out

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