Standards

CHAPTER 16

As Lucius crawled through the forest, he wondered just how stupid he looked. He was crawling on his hands and knees because everything was hitting him on the face and he wasn't the most discreet while doing it. Maybe it was a bad idea to be crawling like this in a forest where anyone or anything could attack, but Lucius was in no mood to rethink what he was doing.

He was too busy thinking about his mates. How could they do something like that to him? Why did no one want to listen? Was he not needed?

Maybe it was best for him to forgot Harry and everything else he had with him. But how could he forgot his children?

What Harry did to him, he could never forget. Tom become a monster in his eyes when he raised his hand at him. If he can raise his hand at Lucius, then he could probably hurt his children too. And that worried him.

What he did was wrong. But they had to talk, and no one was ready to do that. He was in the wrong for sleeping with Regulus, but Harry said he could love anyone he wanted. If Harry had listened then he would have known just how much Lucius regrets sleeping with Regulus. He would have found out that he loves them all and no one else.

Lucius crawled under a fort of leaves and branches. He wanted to rest. He was in pain, his abdomen felt like it was on fire from being kicked by Tom and he was shivering and weak because of the dark spell. If someone attacked him, he would not be able to protect himself.

Lucius up against the more sturdy side of the fort and then used leaves and branches to cover the place from where he had crawled in. He didn't think what could have been inside or why a fort of leaves and branches was there, he only wanted somehow send one message to his mates. Just one explanation of why he did what he did with Regulus. Just one apology.

He fell on his front in the sand and practically rolled in it. He then layed there as still as he could, made his mind go blank and connected himself to the earth. Magic filled him from everywhere and he bathed in the power he was feeling for a few seconds and then got back to the task at hand.

'Harry. It feels weird to call you that and not alpha. I know you don't wanna talk or listen to what I have to say. I hope this message gets to you though....

The man I slept with, his name is Regulus Arcturus Black. He is the king of slytherin and my lover man.... well he used to be. I broke it of with him. I realized that I love you more then I could ever love him.

The day in the forest, I slept with. I let go of my control and the aphrodisiac helped in us sleeping together. It was maybe meant to happen, so that you could walk the correct path without me. Maybe it was because you do not need me anymore.

But I can say one thing, and that is that we do not trust each other. A relationship is built on trust and we do not have that. I hope you can forgive me one day. And let Draco meet his blood father, you would always be Draco's father. But Draco needs his heir ship too, you are now free to choose an alpha as your heir. I am not there for you to think of. But I hope my sons meet your standards and you love them.

I asked too much of you Tom. Maybe it was foolish of me to trust you after the incident in our rooms. But remember that people change, and so did you. So there is no worries to what happened. But I don't think you should do that to your mates. Hope you can forgive me and yourself. I will for forgive you, but I cannot be sure if I can never fear you.

And it is not a good thing for your mates to fear you Tom.

I love you Severus. I hope you hold the family together. I hope you have a good future and never cry.

We never were meant to be. It was always Tom, Severus and Harry. Lucius was never supposed to be there. You even look alike in a few ways while I am the odd one out. I was always supposed to be out my loves.