The boy underneath the stars // H.J + L.M

Chapter 87

Jisung immediately shoots up from the floor when he hears the door open, quickly shoving the razor under his bed.
He's just in time to pull his sleeve down when Minho comes into his view.

"Hyung!" He exclaims, collecting himself as fast as possible. "What are you doing here?"

His heart drops in his chest when he notices the look on his boyfriend's face, and for a minute, Jisung thinks Minho saw what he was doing.

"Jisung, you have to promise me not to freak out." Minho starts carefully, his eyes dead serious.

Jisung nods slowly, frowning. "...why? What happened..?"

It's clear that it's about something else now, but it doesn't calm Jisung down one bit.

He watches carefully as Minho sits down on his bed, taking his hands in his.

"Hyung.. what is it?"

Minho takes a deep breath. "Just remember that it probably won't be a big deal alright? It's still safe and there's a small chance they'll actually-"

"just tell me what happened."

Minho stops, swallowing. "They found out that the body is Wooyoung's."

Jisung's eyes widen, and he stumbles over his words as he starts talking. "W-what? But I thought that that wasn't possible how did they-"

"Apparently they were still able to figure it out through his DNA or something, the report came in this morning."

"We didn't think about that.. why didn't we think about that?!"

Minho can see Jisung starting to get into a full-on panic attack again, but when he tries to pull him close all Jisung does is push him away.

"We're so stupid!! I always ruin it, I always ruin everything. They got me didn't they? And now I'm going to jail because I killed someone. I fucking killed someone."

Jisung breaks out in a rant, pulling on his hair, dropping to his knees, getting up again and starting to pace through the room.

Minho tries to get through to him, but he can't break through the steam of words coming out of Jisung's mouth and the boy refuses to let him come close.

"Isn't it for the better, then? That they'll get me? Who knows what I'm gonna do to someone once, I'm fucking sick. I was actually wishing for them not to find Wooyoung! Am I really that selfish do I then- DON'T TOUCH ME!!"

Jisung frantically pushes Minho away from him, ending up in the older slamming against the wall harshly.

Minho let's out a groan, holding his shoulder tightly as an aching pain shoots through it.

Yes, Jisung is aware that he's overreacting, that the thoughts don't completely make sense. But he can't stop them from forming and he can't seem to control his actions anymore.

He can't focus on anything except for the loud screaming going on in his head and he needs it to get out.

He barely even notices the way Minho's eyes squeeze shut in pain, he keeps on talking, and talking, until it turns into yelling, screaming, and he's not even sure if it's still him talking at this point or the voice taking over completely.