Twilight: Bonnie Cullen.

"The scientist."

*Bonnies POV*

What have I done?

I cant believe I just said that to Jasper. I feel so awful. Jasper has done nothing but try to help me. He's like a brother to me. What would Michael say, if he was here? He'd be so disappointed. God, I would do anything, to hear him scold me. I miss him so much.

I stand in my bedroom. I havent been in it before, but I guessed it was mine as all my belongings are here. There is a soft cream carpet, which tickles my feet threw my socks, and soft green walls. There is a double bed, pushed against the wall, with a cream bedspread, with purple flowers on it. Purple decorative pillows cover the bed, along with several of my stuffed animals. The matching curtans are pulled back, and the  moon shines in. Its getting late, and Im tired. I walk over to the cream dressing table, which is similar to the one back home, and sit down, and look in the mirror.

Im a mess. I barely even recognize myself. The bags under my eyes... my hair... the tear stains. Who is this girl? She looks so... so sad. So traumatized. Pained.

What would Michael think of me like this? He wanted me to be happy, but I dont look it. I stare at myself in the mirror, and let the tears spill. The more I look at myself, the more I see Michael. As kids, everyone always said we resembled. I always denied it, I never saw it. But now I do.

And I wish I had sooner.

I lean my elbows on the dresser, and bury my head in my hands, wailing.

I want Michael back.

I want my Mom back.

I want Edward back.

Why does everyone leave me? Everyone I love, everyone who promised they would never leave, has. It isnt fair. I dont want this. I dont want to feel like this. What have I ever done to deserve this? Im a good person. I help people. I do everything I can.

So why is this happening to me?

"Bonnie." I hear a soft voice speak as my door creaks open slightly. I turn around to see Emmett standing, looking cautious. I look to him, and dont speak.

"Im sorry." I whimper.

"Its okay, Bonnie-" He begins, closing the door behind him.

"No." I cut him off, sharply. "No, its not okay, Emmett." I shake my head, crying. He walks over to me, and holds me by the shoulders. "None of this is okay. Emmett, Im scared, Im so scared. And- And everyone- everyone is leaving me, Emmett. I just want them back- I just want my Mom, and Michael- I want Edward back." I scream, as he pulls me into his chest. I scream into his shirt as he runs a hand threw my hair, hushing me.

"Edward hasnt left you- Bonnie. And none of us are going to leave you." He whispers.

"I miss him, Emmett. I need him back."

"And we'll get him, Bonnie. I promise." He kisses my head. He cups my chin, and I look into his golden eyes. "I promise." He repeats.

"Okay." I whisper, not quite sure what to say or think.

We lay in my bed for hours, talking. I cuddle up into Emets chest, and he has an arm around me. Laying here, it feels like Im here with Edward, and for a split second- I let myself believe it.

Emmett tells me of stories of his childhood, growing up with his family, the day he met Rosalie. Its not long until I cant keep my eyes open much longer, and I close them, listening to him tell me about his parents. And eventually, I fall asleep in his arms, longing to see Edward.

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*Jaspers POV*

Leah sits on the bench in the kitchen, Seth standing next to her. Jacob and I are facing each other, sitting at the dining room table. We heard every single thing in Emmett and Bonnies conversation. Now, I can hear her heavy breathing, and I expect Emmett to be down any minute soon, as shes asleep.