Twilight: Bonnie Cullen.

"You Need Me But I don't Need You"

*Edwards POV*

The house is quite as I pack my bag to leave for Denver. Rosalie hasn't made an appearance out of her room since last night and Alice hasn't breathed a word to me. Carlisle and Esme, however, have been talking to me, barely. Its not that they are upset, its just the fact of they don't know what to say.

When Ive packed my bag, I walk into the hallway, and leave it sitting by the door. I wonder down into Bonnies room, and open the door slowly.

A part of me inside expects that when I open the door, she'll be sitting on the bed reading, and another part knows she isn't here. I sit on the bed, and grab the blanket draped on top. When I bunch it in my hands and sniff it, it smells exactly like her.

My eyes begin to tear and I hold my head in my hands staring at the blanket on my lap. I love Bonnie so much, and want what's best for her. Which is a human life

But how can I stay with her? She cant stay human for long if we are going to be together. And I know in my heart, that I will love her in a hundred years if she was to turn, but what if she doesn't? Shes still young, and realistically, she could change her mind.

but if I don't turn her, I have to leave her. And for me, I know it shouldn't be an option. But it is. Not because I don't want her, but because its what keeps her safe. What keeps her human.

Alice thinks that there isn't a choice. That if I love Bonnie, then I should change her. Rosalie thinks that its in Bonnies best interests to leave her. For her to wake up one morning and for us all to be gone. Esme and Carlisle say they will support me whatever my decision.

I haven't talked to Jasper and Emmett about it, but I already know what their opinion will be. They'll agree with Alice, most likely. Bonnie is like a sister to Emmett and Jasper, and they love her very much.

So where does that leave me?

How can I choose?

Because I know for a fact, if I was to leave Bonnie, it would kill her. But perhaps not for as long as I think. If it was to happen, she isn't the one who has to live with the pain for eternity.

She may have lost Michael- and even though it pains me to say it- she'll have Jacob. And his father. She can be looked after. In a few years, Ill be nothing but a distant memory. Sure Jacob is a werewolf, but their laws are different. They are more understanding. She'll have a life with him I could never give her. He can give her warm in his touch, he can give her the family she deserves.

I cant.

So what will I do?

Should I still go and see her in Denver? What if it changes my mind? Do I want my mind to changed?

What do I want? I want Bonnie.

But Rosalie was right. This life isn't something you would wish upon your worst enemy. She was right was she said this wasn't living. That this was surviving.

But Bonnie has survived a lot? She can survive this?

No, Edward, no. I scold myself. I don't want her to survive. I want her to live.

I hear a knock at the door, and when I lift my eyes, I see Alice standing in the doorway.

"Hey." I speak, clearing my throat and drying my tears abruptly.

"Hi." She says, walking over and sitting next to me. She rubs her knees, showing shes nervous. "Look, Edward. Im sorry."

I look to her, surprised. I don't know what I expected, but it wasn't that.