Twilight: Bonnie Cullen.

"Helena"

*Bonnies POV*

I feel uneasy here with Leah. Not that I feel she would hurt me or anything, but its just because I haven't spent much time with Leah.

I know that she doesn't like me though. She makes that pretty clear usually. Shes protective over Jacob, and she thinks Im bad for him.

But then again, I don't necessarily disagree. I am bad for Jacob. Not even just recently, but even when I was still with my father. I made him feel under pressure, and stressed and it resulted in him leaving me.

And now, I have him hiding from some of the oldest vampires in the world.

"Uh, so what did Edward say when you called him?" She asks, sitting on the side of the bed in my temporary bedroom. I stand by the window looking out into the warm morning. Its about noon, so the streets will start to get busy soon. Its a Saturday, so it will mostly be teenagers, hustling and bustling around like I should be. But then again, they, aren't in love with a vampire, so- I guess that's how the other half live.

"I, uh, I- haven't called him yet." I say, looking over to her. She looks surprised. I cant blame her either. Ive been awake as hours and- don't get me wrong, Edward hasn't left my thoughts for a second- I still haven't gathered the courage to speak to him.

"What? Why not?" She asks, looking genuinely concerned.

" I don't know." I say, and mean it. Its not even that I wouldn't want to tell Leah, but I just genuinely don't know. "Im scared, I guess."

"You're scared of Edward?"

"No." I deny quickly. "No, I- I just don't know what to say to him." She looks confused.

"He isn't good for you, you know." Leah says, deadpan.

"Excuse me?" I ask, taken aback.

"Look Bonnie, Im not saying this for anything to do with me, but Jacob cares about you. And this whole mess you guys are in, involves Jake. He is like a brother to me, so you know what? His problems are my problems?

And you know what families do? They help each other. So Jakes problems are my problems."

"Are you calling me a problem?" I ask in disgust.

"No. Im not. But Im calling Jacobs feelings for you a-" She stops in the middle of her sentence and her eyes widen. Her head drops and she panics slightly.

"What?" I ask softly, realization hitting me like a brick wall.

"Nothing," she shakes her head standing to her feet.

"Leah." I say. "Is it true?"

I know she knows what I am asking. I am asking does Jacob really have feelings for me.

"Its not my place to say."

"Leah, please."

"Lets just say, he wouldn't be here if he didn't." And with that she turns and leaves me standing in my bedroom, numb.

I sit on my bed, barely able to form a coherent thought. What is happening? Is this really why hes been acting so strange. He still feels for me.

I knew there was something there, Im not stupid. I mean, why would you drag yourself in to a situation like this, if you didn't care for the girl? But I didn't know just how strong these feelings were. And im still not sure if I know how strong they are.

My head starts to spin at the thought of this.

What am I going to do?

How am I going to be able to look at him?