Dr Shepherd

I Cant Believe I Kissed Him...

Link kisses me and I kissed him back.. after I kissed back he pushed me over on the bed without breaking the kiss and we both started taking off our clothes.. and you can guess where that went...

After this had been happening someone walks into the on call room the second I heard her voice I push link off of me sitting up

"Amelia! Are you in here!" I hear y/n say..

"Y/n...!" I say

I look up at her and I see the tears forming in her eyes as she closes the on call room running out of the room

"F*ck.." I say to myself pushing link off of me and getting my clothes back on running out of the on call room to find y/n.

I see her sitting with Arizona and mark and the three of them looked up at me

"What did you do Amelia?" Arizona says "why is she crying?"

"I..." I say

"Amelia you didn't do what I think you did..." mark says

I just nod and look at y/n who just looks... really really hurt..

"Why the hell would you od that Amelia!" Arizona says

"I thought she was cheating on me!" I say which causes y/n to look up at me.. "it seemed like she was cheating so i ran off to the hospital and link kissed me... and one thing led to the other and... well.. I don't know it just happened.."

"Amelia you screwed up big time.." Mark says

"I know..." I say "and I'm really sorry.. I don't know what got into me! I was so mad at you for not being honest with me and I did a very horrible thing to you and I ruined everything.."

"Amelia..." y/n says "can you just leave me alone for a bit?" She says

"Y-yea... I'll um.. see you around.." I say and walk away

I walk to a room and just breakdown crying. Why did I kiss him! I don't even like him. I hate him!

"What is wrong with you Amelia!" I say to myself

But that's just it... everything is.. I can't keep a relationship for more than a month without screwing it all up.. I hurt y/n more than anybody has ever hurt me. I just... I don't know what had gotten into me. I just sat there for 20 minutes until it was the time that my shift started so I walked out of the room tried to mark it look like I hadn't been crying and started working. All I could think about all day was y/n... and what I had done to her and how I could try and Ifix it. But I don't think there's any way that I can fix it... not this time