WALKING IN MY SHOES

17. Wish

Madilyn pov~

'look at her...she's pathetic'
' she can't seem to take the hint, Zack doesn't like her but she's here'
'she looks awful...and not just with mud all over her'
'yeah it looks like she got shit all over her'

Zacks teammates laughed and insulted me, I couldn't take anymore of it and ran off the field...
I can't believe what a asshole he is...
I really don't get him, first his apologizing, then his tripping me in mud...I feel like crying.
He embarrassed me infront of Ryan, and Ryan just asked me out, I doubt he'd want to still go out with me now,I'll just embarrass him by being with him.
I hate Zack so much....the fact that I actually considered tutoring him again makes me feel so naive... people like him will never change....I don't even know what he gains from all this.
I'm covered in mud from head to toe and as I walk through the school corridor I hear people laugh and insult me, I feel a few tears run down my cheeks....I wouldn't let them have the honour of seeing me cry ,it's just what they want....I don't know what I've ever done to anyone to deserve this, to be hurt and mocked for entertaining... people are truly evil.

I run to the school bathroom so I can be alone and cry in peace but like the universe is against me, Tiffany blocks my way.

"Awww you see what happens when you don't listen to me"she says with a smirk and fake sympathy.

"Look at you...what did you expect, your a nobody" she says shoving me.

"Yeah, your so pathetic" one of her friends say snickering.
"What where you doing there...were you throwing yourself at him you worthless piece of shit" Tiffany sneers, I feel like she'd actually choke if she knew he was actually the one who practically begged me to see him after practice or that his the one whose failing and asked for my help.

"He'd never want someone as ugly as you so you should just back off " Oliva spat out.
"You'll have no problem with that" I sneer out... you don't even have to tell me twice, I never wanna see him ever again.

"Oh and stay away from Ryan too....his way out of your league....and people like you deserve to be alone" Olivia grabs my arm with her claw like nails...
I can't take these hoes anymore so I push my way out of her grasp and run into a bathroom stall.

Like what the hell...'i deserve to be alone?'
Who the hell is she...God?...she doesn't decide what I deserve.
I hear a beep on my phone, I check that someone uploaded something I click on it to see that some prick uploaded a picture of me on the ground covered in mud with the caption 'The king strikes again...#loser ate mud... literally
That's what happens when nerds try their luck on Zack Rainford'

Like what the actual fuck...I tried my luck on who now?... people just assumed that I'm the bad one here..I did not the such, Zacks the asshole who tripped me!..  and the  sad truth is that even if I deny all of it they won't believe me.. because I'm a nobody, popularity really does get you a easy pass, unfortunately I'm not the good kind of popular....I'm trending alright, but like a loser on the internet.

I can't believe I'm so stupid, I mean what was I expecting?, Him to act like a civilized person?and sing harmony...I can't believe I fell for his trick.

I hate him, I hate everyone whose popular....this was my one chance, Ryan finally asked me out, do you know how long I've wished he would...and now it's all ruined...it's not like he'd want to be seen with a loser who was apparently trying her luck with Zack...that's just some absurd bullshit!!

I mean they were both there and none of them seem to deny what people are saying, like hello I'm the victim here...I don't even want to read the comments, I'd die from a stroke with all the assumptions I'll read.

I just sat on the bathroom floor letting my tears flow, I cried about how pathetic my life is and how nothing ever goes right or what bad luck I have, I dig myself a hole of pity, if  all my bottled up tears are going to come out now, might as well cry for everything one time.

I'm sure Zack has never felt like this ..
No because he has the most fucking perfect little life anyone would want.
He has it all...the looks, the money , the people.

And yet he is failing in school, so he picks the person with the worst life (me) and decides to ruin it even more, so he can feel better about himself.

I'm sure his never been bullied before, or accused for something that's not even the slightest bit true.
Or I'm sure nobody ever threatened him for stealing their girlfriend/boyfriend, when you don't even have a little interest in them whatsoever.

His life must be so perfect....I wish he knew what I have to face everyday...
I get insulted and made fun of, yeah i might play it cool but all those words really do hurt me...
I wish he knew what it felt like to have some like him do the stuff he does to me back to him...or what it's like to feel pathetic and have people remind you how worthless you are, or how it feels to put on an act of confidence when your crumbling inside... yeah I get good grades and act like nothing people say or do affects me but it does and the fact that I don't stand up for myself says it all.

I wish he knew what it was like to walk in my shoes. I want him to feel what it's like to be me...or I wish I knew what it was like to be him, without a worry in the world and not give a shit about anything or anyone.

Haha like wishes come true... he'd never know what it's like to be me... he's probably not even fazed right now that he can actually do something like this to someone and let untrue rumours spread...I wonder if he even has a heart.

I wonder if he actually thinks about the stuff he does before he does it...or do any of his teammates or Tiffany know how all the shit they say damages peoples self-esteem.
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Hi...so I know it's a boring chapter but..🤷
Don't hate my Zack I know his a jerk.
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