no feelings || jenzie

fifty four

kenzie

"ugh"
i groan reaching over to grab my phone

"6:57 am"
it reads, i place it down before sitting up, although i wasn't drunk last night i don't really recall much of it and i also had an excruciating headache that's probably the reason i'm up so early

i stand up making sure not to wake the sleeping lauren on the bed next to me, i make my way through the hallway past johnny's room and the guest room and to the bathroom where i'm sure meredith kept the tylenol but after minutes of searching and rummaging through the cupboards i was unable to find any

"you alright"
i hear a raspy voice from behind me causing me to jump back from the cupboard, johnny hovers his head through the door his hair messy and eyes puffy

"oh uh yeah i was just looking for some tylenol, i thought mer kept it in here but i can't find any"
i explain trying to catch my breath from when johnny scared me

"oh yeah it should be in here"
he opens the door fully and moves past me his body brushing against mine as he reaches over to the top cupboard

"you must've missed it"
he extends his hand passing me the tylenol sending me an awkward smile

"thank you"
i lightly say sending him a smile back

"i'm sorry about before"
he continues resting his body on the bathroom counter

"it's ok, it wasn't your fault i promise"
i look down remembering what had taken place earlier

"are you feeling better"

"yeah except for the headache of course"
i look back up at the boy awkwardly giggling

"i know this might be to much at the moment considering what had happened before but i really need to talk to you"

"what about"
i ask

"nadia"
he shyly says knowing my reaction

"not now johnny, maybe tomorrow"
i say putting my head down

"yeah of course, when ever your ready"
he nods his head smiling at me

"goodnight kenz"
he says quickly placing his cold hand on the exposed skin on my lower back before squeezing his way out of the bathroom leaving me with butterflies

i make my way back into mine and lauren's room, with hundreds of thoughts taking up my mind
'why did he want to talk to me'
'what has nadia done now'
'why did i react like that when he touched me'
'do i miss him'

"ugh"
i quietly grown hopping back into bed

i guess all those questions will be answered tomorrow

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uhh so sorry i took a break kinda forgot about this story, but thank you for all the kind messages when i was gone we're nearly finished with this book :(((
that makes me so sad i've been writing it since i was like 12 ahaha, it's ok though i have like 2 more in the works <3