Fix Me

You Need Me, I Want You

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**Ashton's POV** 

Tinleigh hasn't spoken to me for two weeks. Two whole weeks. I am devistated. I know I lied and I shouldn't have but there are some things in this world we get so caught up in that we have no control in whether or not we become apart of them.

It just so happens that this particular thing I got caught in was drugs. I knew after she told me about Oscar I could never let her find out.

It was my secret. 

My disgusting secret that I hated myself for. But I never stopped doing it. I never stopped because it took me away. Away from the pain. 

It was only temperary so I had to keep at it. I couldn't live with my past. I had done so many things wrong and the only way to repress that stuff was through the drugs.

I just couldn't let Tin know how miserable I was. I didn't want her to think she wasn't enough. I didn't want her to think she didn't make me happy. Because she did. She does. 

That girl is my whole world. Sitting here in this facility is bringing a lot of things back to the surface and I never realized how much she helped with these things. It was all hidden behind my conscious mind. 

I don't know if I am being selfish when I say I wish she were here with me. I mean, I was there for whenever she needed me. I never left her side. I never thought about leaving her side. 

I guess I am just another fucked up part of her life and that scares me. It hurts, as well. I wanted to be the one thing she could count on. I wanted her to feel like I was her rock. That she would never have to doubt my ability to love her and protect her.

But I don't think that will ever happen, now anyway. She has lost all trust in me. I got that from the tone in her voice when she left two weeks ago. 

She hasn't visited me once and I don't know how what to think of it.

"Hello, I am Nurse Santado. I am subbing for Jones today. Are you having any more pain in your lower abdomen?" 

"Tinleigh?" I look up abruptly. 

"No, Nurse Sanders?" She looked quite confused.

"I'm sorry, I thought you said Santado."

"Something bothering you, 'ol sport?"

"My girlfriend hasn't come to see me in two weeks... I'm actually not even sure of our relationship status at this point." I try to say monotoned but my emotions are getting the best of me.

"Listen, Ashton is it? My daughter loves your band," Should have seen that coming, she comes over and takes a seat next to me, "anyway, I had a similar problem when I was your age."

"I wouldn't mind hearing a good tale." I just wanted to be nice. Also I was very curious to hear about her "Similar" experience and how it ended.

"I was twenty-three and my boyfriend at the time was working down at a local diner on 53rd. I went to visit him one day, with our baby girl. He hadn't seen her in two nights, due to his overworking himself. I hadn't thought anything of it. Until I go there. He wasn't in his normal work attire and he had blood all over his hands," She moves a little closer and leans against the bed, for comfort I assume, "I said to him, 'Jim, honey, what happened to your hand?' he looked me dead in the eye and I knew my boyfriend was not that man standing in front of me. He was taken by something that wasn't going to be so kind to me."

She crosses her legs and leans back in the chair and wipes her tears before she continues, "I put our baby down next to a booth and walked over to my love. When I got to him I saw a man on the floor bleeding and crying. Soft cries. He said he never wanted to be apart of that world because he knew this would happen one day. He knew the drugs would kill him one way or another. My boyfriend looks up at me, tears streaming down his face and he says, I need you!" 

"I'm so confused."

"You see he knew he had entered a world that he didn't know would end him. I was confused too... Until I saw that our little Zoey had walked to over to him. She walked. And he was there to see it. He didn't want the drugs to take him away from her."

"That's beautiful. But if you don't mind my asking. Whyare you telling me this, I don't want to sound rude or anything but how does this relate to my situation?"

She kind of just stares at me. With a blank stare. She didn't seem hurt that I denied her story. It was a beautiful story, don't get me wrong, but I just didn't understand until she said these words that will probably stick with me for the rest of my life.

"You need her and she wants you."

She gives me my nightly medication and tells me to have a good sleep and that she hopes everything works out. 

The first thing I think to do is call tinleigh but before I can make it to my phone there is a knock at my door...

//So... this chapter made me cry a bit. uhhh, it wan't the best but I am pretty proud of it. I hope you enjoy. By the way, who do you think is at the door? Comment you predictions, if you'd like!!!(: La la love you all!!!//