Faded: A Marinette Depressed AU

Chapter 14

*WARNING: Self-harm involved*

Mari's POV

I ran all the way to the bathroom, sobbing like a baby. Lila was right. She had somehow taken all my friends away and now Adrien is dating her instead of me. I'm so weak. I'm so useless. I'm just a good-for-nothing idiot who falls at least ten times everyday. As I cry, I look at myself in the mirror. I started shouting at myself.

"You're an idiot!"

"You're useless"

"You're good-for-nothing"

"No one deserves you"

"You are clumsy"

"Everyone hates you"

"You're useless!"

"Just go an kill yourself! No one will ever love you!"

I then look over at the sink and I see a knife. The metal looked so shiny and new. I become so drawn to it.

That's when Tikki decided to come out.

"Marinette, please don't tell me you want to cut yourself"

I looked tiredly at Tikki. "Do I have a choice? No one wants me here. Everyone hates me. I'm so useless and good-for-nothing."

"That's not true, Marinette. You're kind, compassionate, caring and helpful to others, even to Chloe. You're a great designer and a wonderful Guardian. I can proudly tell the world that Marinette Dupain-Cheng is and would still be one of the best Ladybugs the world has ever known."

I look up at her with more tears in my eyes. "Just stop it Tikki! I don't know if this is your idea of a motivational message, but it isn't working. It's just better if you find a new Ladybug at least. No one cares for me, Tikki, not even you, because you just lied to me. I'm such a clutz. I make rash decisions on the job which have almost cost me the miraculous. If I had been smarter during Love Eater, then maybe I wouldn't be the guardian right now. Just leave me alone Tikki!"

"But Marinette-"

"SILENCE!" I scream with tears in my eyes. I have learnt that miraculous holders have the power to control their kwamis. So as I command Tikki, her moth becomes sealed shut.

I pick up the knife and rub the cold blade near my shoulder, feeling the coldness on my skin. Then without thinking, I dip the blade into my arm and keep the knife in for a while. I winced in pain, but somehow the pain turned into pleasure as I made more and more cuts on my shoulders. 

I then look in the mirror and see my chest. I look at the blood-stained knife in my hands and look back at my chest, where my heart lies. I smile wickedly at myself and whisper, "Goodbye, Mari."

And as I am about to end it all.....

"MARINETTE STOP!!!"

I look up in fear before seeing....

"Chloe?"

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Queenie's here!!!!!

So what do you think is going to happen? Would there be Chloe redemption? Would Mari stop cutting herself? Would her classmates find out?

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