Omega's Choice

Chapter 26

After Haru came home from the hospital: Kenma's POV

Haru seems like he's been awfully upset about something ever since we found him, and he won't tell me what...

"Kitten?" 

"Huh?"

"You alright?" Kuroo asked with a small smile. I sighed as he gave the top of my head a kiss.

"I just wish I knew what was wrong with our son." 

"He seems like he's in need of some comfort." He whispered to me. I quietly nodded and got up from the couch and went to Haru's room. When I knocked and peaked into his room, I saw him curled up on his bed with his back to the doorway.

"Haru?" I said softly. My son didn't say anything, but turned to look at me. I gestured for him to follow me and waited for him to get up before leading him to my room. 

Since my mate and my son were both alphas, they of course didn't use nests. But I still enjoyed them, and Haru would cuddle with me in them when he was a baby. 

I climbed into one of the nests in my room and looked up at my son. He looked at me in silence before slowly walking over and climbing in with me and curling up into my chest like he would when he was little. Even though I think he was just about as tall as his dad, he was cuddling up to me like a pup again.

"Please.. Tell me what's been bothering you." I whispered to him as I gently brushed my fingers through his hair. Haru sniffled and kept his face hidden before finally answering me. 

"I'm so sorry.."

"For what? You have nothing to be sorry for." 

"You had to lose so much because of me.. and... and...-"

"Haru, I didn't lose anything because of you."

"But-"

"I know you learned about what I had done to make money... and I'm not proud of it. But I never want you feeling guilty about it."

"..."

"Haru, I had lost your father once. And I was so scared of losing you too. You were all I had left of him... So, I did everything to keep you with me. So please, don't apologize and sink away from me anymore." I said, my son nodding silently as he held onto me. 

We stayed like this for a while longer before he quietly lifted his head and looked around. I tilted my head slightly and asked him if he was okay.

"...I feel guilty about one other thing though."

"What is it?"

"The uh... that alpha?"

"Yeah?"

"...I feel wrong because.. I killed him... I..."

"You.. you actually killed him...?"

"Mhm..." Haru mumbled with shame. I pulled him back close for a hug. He shouldn't have any shame in who lost their life. But, the knowledge of death and blood of anyone on a 17 year old's hands is a lot to handle. 

"Where is he?" 

"...He uh... the lake where you guys found me. I had passed out before I could get back to the surface since he dragged me with him." 

"Ah."

"Do you hate me..? I mean... I.. killed someone..."

"Of course not. Nothing you could do could ever make me hate you, ever. You mean everything to me." I said honestly. Haru nodded quietly and gripped onto me again until he ended up falling asleep. I smiled faintly with a few purrs when Kuroo walked in. He laughed faintly and leaned against the doorframe as he looked at us.

"Like he's a baby again huh?" Kuroo said and walked over and sat on the edge of our bed.

"Mhm... I miss when he was little.."

"Me too."

"I wish we could have another..."

"Want to go steal one of the Bokutos?"

"Absolutely not. They're all like Kotaro." 

"What's wrong with that?"

"Are you seriously asking me that?" I said quietly, Kuroo laughing slightly. He watched in silence as I continued brushing my fingers through Haru's hair soothingly.

It does make me sad that I can't have another. I've wanted to give him a brother or sister for a while now, but, thanks to what I've done, that can never happen unless Kuroo and I adopt or find a surrogate or something. And as much as I'd love the child if we did, I feel we're a bit old now for it. Plus, I'd want to be the one carrying it. 

"Hey, Kuroo? Haru said that he actually ended up killing that alpha."

"Seriously?"

"Mhm." 

"Damn..."

"You aren't going to be angry at him oka-"

"My son was strong enough to kill another alpha!"

"Shh!" I shushed quickly as Kuroo got a bit too excited over such a serious matter. He smiled apologetically and moved to sit on the floor by me. 

"Sorry, sorry."

"Is our son's strength really the thing you are focusing on right now? And not the fact he took a life?"

"Well, I mean. You can't say he didn't deserve it."

"I'm not saying he didn't deserve it. I'm saying I'm concerned our son will continue to feel guilty about it for the rest of his life." 

"Is that what he's been down about?"

"Mhm." 

"Maybe we should take him to talk to Daichi."

"What for?"

"I'm sure that Daichi has a lot of stories about times where he's felt guilty for doing something that may seem hard, but was right. I mean he's an officer I'm sure there's been something of similar circumstances." 

"Maybe. It would be nice to see them."

"Want me to call them?"

"Not now. I want our son to rest first."