Duryodhan
The first thing that comes into our minds
Is that he is cruel, arrogant and egoistic
But he isn't like that at all
It was all Shakuni's influence
He just needed someone to bring him out of that or maybe a better guidance.....
What if that...
As soon as the Avanti kumar and kumaris departed I engaged myself in palace works as I can't let maa work after all the hardships she faced for her whole life..... That was not the only reason but also I wanted to serve maa now as she served the people of this kingdom.... Wholly devoted..... and it was past dinner time... I was handling the night arrangement so that nobody would be in need to come out of the chamber by disturbing their sleep....
While working for whole day my thoughts never for once flickered from Arya... He was the one who taught me what is love.... For me he is the definition of love and for him I am his definition of love..... I, after I discovered that I am sister of Krishna.... Lord Krishna, I thought that I will surely meet the same fate as him.... Like leaving your love behind.... And truly I thought like this till a pahar before my marriage with Arya... But when I now think about it... I am sure enough that not for once I would be able to let him go or stay away from him .....
The moment when I found about my true self.... Me being Mahakali....mahamaya.... I decided that I would fight against my fate but won't let go of my ardhaang.... it's just that I couldn't bear to let him go....never was and I think never will I be able to gather enough courage to go away from him...
Immersing in the thoughts of my Arya... I was handling the chores of palace .... Firstly it was a little difficult for me to adjust with the duties and my weapon practice but then with the support of all I excelled it....
I still remember when all of the family members were sitting together on the night of ekadashi as it was decided by us ladies that every night before departing to sleep all of the family members will spend time together, and were talking with each other, at the moment pitashree questioned me which member of family I loved the most apart from Arya......
I was stuck from all directions...... I loved all the members of my family...I looked at all the faces staring at me for my answer.... But at last my eyes fell on my devars and nanad..... I smiled at them and said,"ek stree k jeevan mein har ek vyakti use sarva Priya hota h...na kam na jyada... Parantu ek rishta h jo har bandhan se pare h.... Har ek dvesh bhawna se pare.... Mamta ki bhawna.... Jab Mahadev ne Ganesh ji ka sar unke dhar se alag kar diya tha, tab Gauri na sirf patni apitu maa bhi thi.... Parantu mamta ki bhawna har ek bhawna se adhik balshali aur Prabal hoti h....isliye tou Gauri pure sansaar se ladne ko sajjy ho gayi thi apne putra k liye..." I stopped and Angada asked,"woh tou theek h bhabhi maa parantu apka Uttar kya h??arthat???" And I chuckled...
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"Arthat???....arthat ye ki mere liye sarva Priya h meri santaan.... Jo ki mere devar aur meri pyari si eklauti nanad h....aisa nhi ki mai apne baki parivar jano se prem nhi karti .... Sabka mulya mere jeevan mein ek saman h... Parantu shayad khi na khi mata ka santaan k prati prem thoda adhik hota h...." And no sooner I was crushed in the mighty arms of my devars and Dushala.....
Ahh...... The moments I spend with my family have been so sweet and peaceful.... Too good to be true.... But that's what makes me feel afraid....life has been a roller coaster for me... Sometime smooth but enjoying and another minute it turns my world upside down.... I just wish that what I am thinking will never come true....
