Mistakes We've Made..

~Eleven~

This was the best decision, I couldn't handle this situation any other way... I should've just told Jon the truth when it all happened...

I sighed heavily staring at the door, wishing the doctor would just walk through and do what he has to. I hate places like this, nurses are too perky, your nose burns when you breathe in, and everyone in the waiting room seems to stare at you with either the look of sympathy or judgement. I couldn't wait to get out of here.

I thought I'd feel better when I left the clinic, but I felt worse. Part of me was disgusted with myself, the other was relieved. I shouldn't have had to do this at all, I shouldn't have been drinking that much at Jon's party and I shouldn't have gone with Ben and I wish I could go back and stop myself.

I stood outside the building, staring out at the nearly empty parking lot. No sign of Aaron yet... I couldn't wait to get away from here, this place makes me feel sick. After maybe five minutes of standing alone, Aaron pulled into the parking lot... I've never gotten into his car so quickly in my entire life.

"You look pale..." Aaron stated, as he pulled out of the parking lot.

"I feel sick... That place was terrible." I sighed, leaning my head against the window and closing my eyes.

"Can't imagine an abortion clinic would be all that fun." He said. "Are you sure you're okay?"

"No." I sighed. "I feel bad for doing it, I didn't want to have the baby, and I didn't want to abort it. I shouldn't have even been with Ben that night!"

"Calm down." Aaron said, calmly. "What's done is done..."

"Yeah, but I don't know if I can live with what I've done." I said, my voice cracking near the end as my eyes filled with tears. "I can't bring myself to tell Jon, he just loves me so much and I can't break his heart..."

"Devon..." Aaron trailed off. "I'm sorry."

"I can't lose him, Aaron. Jon's the only stable thing I've had, I got bounced around from one family member to the next my entire life... No one ever seemed to want me, except Jon."

"I know." Aaron said.

"I don't deserve Jon though, I cheated on him and I've lied... I got pregnant with his friend's baby, and aborted the baby... And he doesn't have a fucking clue." I said, finally letting myself cry a little.

"I think you need to figure everything out." Aaron said, quietly. "But, I do have a question for you..."

"What?"

"Do you have feelings for Ben? I mean, did you... When you slept with him?" He asked hesitantly.

"N-no." I shook my head. "I mean, in ninth grade before Jon and I started dating Ben and I had a thing for like a week but it was nothing."

"Oh."

"I just want to sleep." I sighed.

"Close your eyes, Devon. I'll wake you up when we get home." Aaron said, as I shut my eyes.

**

"Dev... Devvvvon... Seriously?" I heard faintly, as I started to wake up.

I opened my eyes, and blinked a few times, allowing myself to clearly see Aaron leaning over me. "Morning."

"All the guys are coming your house...?"

"Fuck! I forgot I'd invited anyone over." I sighed, covering my face with my hands.

I got out of the car and started stretching only to feel a sharp pain in my abdomen. I grabbed my stomach and leaned over, trying desperately to relieve the pain.

"Are you alright?" Aaron asked, sounding concerned.

"Uhh..." I stood up a little. "I think so, let's get into my house."

"Are you sure, Devon?" He asked.

"Aaron, I think pain is to be expected... I just had a child surgically removed from my uterus." I shrugged. "I'll lay down before the guys come by."

"Whatever." Aaron sighed, following me into the building.

I unlocked my door, and quickly headed straight to my bedroom. I changed into a pair of comfy pyjama pants and a loose tank top.

"Are you going to bed?" Aaron asked, from outside the door.

"I was going to grab a blanket and lay on the couch." I told him, opening my bedroom door.

"Okay." He smiled.

Within half an hour Jon, Ben and Ian were all at my house with pizza. Everybody was sitting around the living room, eating and talking. Things seemed to be going back to normal, and I liked that.

"Hey, Dev can I talk to you...?" Ben asked, keeping his voice low.

"Oh, uh." I looked from Aaron to Jon, both giving me questioning looks. "Sure?"

I followed Ben into the kitchen, and say down at my small table. "Talk."

"Well, have you told Jon?" He asked quickly.

"Told Jon what?" I said, acting clueless.

"That you're pregnant, Devon!" He whisper yelled at me.

"I'm not." I said casually.

"You're not?" He cocked his head to the side a little.

"Nope." I smiled. "It's been taken-" I stopped, another sharp pain shooting through my lower abdomen. "Care of."

"Are you okay?" Ben asked, looking incredibly confused and worried.

"Just in a little pain." I shrugged. "I'll be fine."

"You don't look fine." Ben stated, as I got up. "Devon, you're covered in blood..."

Well fuck me...

A/N: I don't know if I'm entirely proud of this chapter, but hey. I hope you like it! Comments and votes make me smile sooo! I like interacting with you guys, I wanna know what you think'll happen!