Tragic Tragedy

Alone

I feel so alone, it's so fucked up
Got so many thoughts spinning
I dont know what to do
It feels like I'm breaking
But what else can I do
I try so hard
But I find my way back to you

Chests getting heavier with every breath that I take
I'm sick of the anxiety, it just eats me away
I needed your heart but you took mine and left it
I needed your trust but you were too scared I felt it

So fuck your words I never meant shit to you
You just used me and left when you were done, we were through
Fuck I'm overthinking I need some closure, someone to hold me
Please give me another reason not to give up, I'm feeling lonely

I'm tired of fighting my demons I'm too weak to keep going
Sick of hiding my emotions, my body's too numb to fake it
I know I fucked up badly when I carved your name on my chest so you'd love me
Together we said forever but now I'm here and you're there without me

I feel so alone, it's so fucked up
Got so many thoughts spinning
I dont know what to do
It feels like I'm breaking
But what else can I do
I try so hard
But I find my way back to you

I've walked through heaven and hell to see you can't save me
Been holding it all in along with the pain and hurt you gave me
So fuck all your reasons and all your petty excuses
You're just a waste of space, another one of them toxic ex's

So get out of my life and get out of my mind
So hard to move on when I can't ever leave it behind
All I wanted was your heart for mine but it was all too much
I'm tired of being haunted by your shadows and missing your touch

What the hell am I doing and what the hell am I thinking
Thought I was sober, thought I gave up drinking
I'm sick of feeling lost and sick of the demons hanging over my shoulder
I'm sick of feeling numb, my body just keeps getting colder

Pushed everyone away to find some peace in silence
But I found a way to turn things around, its subsidence
Dont know what to do I'm just sitting here with a gun to head
Don't want this to be the end but I might be better off dead

I feel so alone, it's so fucked up
Got so many thoughts spinning
I dont know what to do
It feels like I'm breaking
But what else can I do
I try so hard
But I find my way back to you