Her Revenge✓

30 : Pillow fight

"Me or my forgiveness?", asked Sidharth raising eyebrows. Shehnaaz hugged him more tightly and placed her head near his head and kissed his cheek. She want both she can't choose any as choosing one will mean she is selfish either for forgiveness or for him

"Can I get both? ", Asked Shehnaaz and placed her hand on his cheeks . Sidharth closed his eyes feeling her soft hand on his. Her hand always have that magic to melt him whatever the situation is. He controlled his feelings as he don't want to go rude but his heart is not letting him forgive her as well. His heart is broken now. His heart still beat for her but that doesn't mean he have that much guts to give her another chance

He is now a practical person who think before trusting anyone. Even his old loyal employees are scared of him and his anger. They know they can't ask for anything if he is sad or angry.

He removed her hand from his face and interwined thier fingers. For that moment Shehnaaz thought that she got him but again he asked same question

"Me or forgiveness? Choose one thing Shehnaaz",asked Sidharth. Shehnaaz nodded and took a long breath to gather courage.  She know what she want if she have a choice. She thought he will let her choose both but this man is mysterious

"You", replied Shehnaaz while looking in his eyes. Sidharth smiled as she answered what he expected. He is happy that atleast she is not with hin for just forgiveness. He understood it but his negative mind still ask him to think about his decision again. He want to pamper her just like before but his few fears are scaring him. He can't go through same pain again. He can't let same girl break his heart again. He can't even stop his stupid heart which always beat for her

"Once I got you I will try my best to gain your forgiveness. Everyone deserve a second chance hana Sidharth? I never cheated you nor did you but I lost this heart to you. I love you soo much that I can't think of living without you", Shehnaaz replied with a genuine smile looking in his eyes to assure him that she told truth nothing was a lie. In between she played with hairs as She missed playing with his hairs as well

"Shehnaaz see I am yours forever I am trying I..tried but I am unable to... How to do that? You said you started loving me then how can you doubt me? Even if I understand that then was not taking revenge your plan? Your motive to meet me and love me was for revenge only right?", stammered Sidharth softly holding her hands. He stammered as his feelings came in this way. He never thought that they will sit like this again , he thought she left him forever but she came again.  He don't know how to forgive her ? How to trust her again with his heart? Is there any way from where he can forgive her?

"Hmm it was but it changed too", Shehnaaz said and looked down. Whenever he talk about revenge she regret everything. She us just left with pool of Regret. She can't argue here as it's her fault. Everything changed because of her. She could have understood before why her brother gave permission to live with his rival when people hate thier rivals.

Sidharth stand up to take a glass of water after pushing her aside softly. All these things are lot for him. Boys also suffer, even they can love someone from bottom of thier heart and once thier heart is broken it is very difficult to mend it again just like for girls

He drank water and sat near her again. He don't want to hurt her again and again. Hurting her indirectly means hurting himself

" Aacha? Then why you completed your revenge from me? If you were in love you could have slapped me confronted me. These was no need to create scene there Shehnaaz", asked Sidharth in hard voice . He is hurt that she did everything in anger. Why he was unable to hate her then,
? He looked towards Shehnaaz who looked down in guilt. He holded her chin and lift it a bit to see her eyes. He noticed her watery eyes and kissed her forehead. He wiped her fresh tears with his thumb and holded her hands in his.