Her Revenge✓

32 : HIS BURST OUT

"Calm down. I have cancelled them as they won't give much profit. Cancel means I will not have any meeting after coming back . Don't worry", Sidharth said with a smile. Shehnaaz smiled back and nodded. She is happy that atleast he can spend time with her after coming back

Shehnaaz started packing his bags and got busy. Sidharth came out of his room to meet his mother who was reading magzine. He asked permission to enter and hugged his mother. Rita sensed some tension in his behaviour. She know he don't knock before entering her room until he is sad or angry. She understood that he want her help when Sidharth hugged her directly

"What happened son? Any problem?", Asked Rita softly. Sidharth nodded and helped her to sit. He placed his head on her lap and looked towards Rita. Rita caressed ruffled his hairs softly and kissed his forehead which contained worry lines. She want her children to stay happy not sad

"I am confused mom..like I love her but whenever I decrease distance between us I remember those days", Sidharth said and closed his eyes tightly to control himself. He don't want to cry in front of his mother. He know if he cried then she will be sad, his mother always take tension whenever he is not happy

Rita kept quiet as she don't have anything to say. It is his decision only . She never went through that pain which Sidharth went through. She love him and Shehnaaz equally but she knows that what Sidharth is feeling is genuine. Anyone will take time to trust a person like her. She started thinking about those days when Sidharth was workaholic but not emotional. He loved Shehnaaz very much and now she understand that it must be difficult for him to trust her again.

"Mom I don't know I am doing right by taking time or not. I still don't trust her... I can't say her as it will hurt her if she is in love with me. I never hated her I don't know what I said in anger before. I don't know if we can lead a happy life together or not", Sidharth told his inner feelings to his mother. He know his mother will help him out now . She will show him the way even if it comes out something unexpected. He is ready to do what his mother says.

"Take your time bacha. You should take time . Regarding Shehnaaz so we are with her. I think she love you I have seen that in her eyes ",said Rita softly. She can understand his side but at the same time she want to see her son happy. She know his happiness lies with her but she can't force him to do things which are difficult for him

"I thought same before too mom. Even that time I thought she love me but she didn't. How can I believe those eyes now? I am scared to loose again now. I can't fight with rejection again. I always thought she loved me but now I don't have any energy left to bear anything", chocked  Sidharth with tears which he wiped immediately. Rita tried holding his face but he pushed her hands and helped her to hold his hairs. Rita kissed his forehead and stroked her hands on his hairs softly. She is very sad finding her son weak in love. Why it happened with him only? Why he didn't got happy married life like he deserved?

"She is honest now beta and if you are not satisfied then test her", suggested Rita so that he could trust her but Sidharth denied instantly

"No mom. I am happy with these little moments. I can't test her as I will be hurt in every way if she is honest then I will be hurt thinking that how can I doubt her and if she is... again doing same then I.. won't be able to survive. I don't want to live nor I want to die leaving you alone", Sidharth said kissed her hands. Rita closed her eyes tightly controlling her tears. She herself can't test Shehnaaz as she don't have any doubt. She know she will regret doubting Shehnaaz very much. She smiled when Sidharth kissed her hands. He always care for her like she is his daughter not mother.

"Then live your every moment beta. Don't think about past . Try to enjoy your present", Rita suggested again. Sidharth nodded and sat beside her. Rita pulled her hands back which here on his hairs before. His eyes are twinkling with tears she understood that he is trying hard not to cry in front of her. She want him to cry but she know he will never do that when he know his mother will cry along with him. Even she is trying hard not to break in front of her son.