Paralyzed

Comfort

Harry's POV

“Harry? What a surprise come on in!”

Louis gestured me to walk in, I didnt know where else to go. Lou was the first person I thought of, he was not only my band mate but my best friend and right now I needed a best friend. 

I walked inside to see Liam and Zayn playing fuse-ball and Niall sitting on the couch with a beer in his hand. Shit. I didnt expect everyone to be here, like what? Are you having a party. I just wanted to talk to Louis. Alone.

“Hey Harry!” Niall said first

“Harry!” Liam followed

“Hello styles” Zayn laughed

“You don't look so good Hazza, im gonna get you a beer.” Louis spoke.

We walked to the fridge and he handed me the beer, I then walked over the couch opposite of Niall and started to to toy around with the alcoholic bottle in my hands.

“So hows Kenzie?” Niall asked putting his beer on Louis coffee table.

“COASTER!” I shouted. Oh wow, thats what Kenzie said to me the night after the New Years party.

Tears started to fill my eyes again with the thought of her, but I shook them away. 

“Harry...” Liam stopped the game of fuse-ball, and walked over towards me. “W-what happened?”

I bite down on my bottom lip and shook my head, “Nothing.”

“HARRY EDWARD STYLES YOU TELL ME THIS INSTANT.” Liam shouted.

Everyone looked at Liam in confusion, Liam never shouted before. In fact Liam was against shouting or violence. He believed everything could be civilly talked about. Apparently that has changed.

“S-sorry, I didnt mean to shout. Please forgive me harry.” He quickly said. “But really what happened.”

I still didnt say another word. I kept my eyes focused on the beer I held in my hands. I started to rip off the paper attached too the bottle. I didnt wanna really talk about it, or her. The memory of it all hurt. From the words that were exchanged, to me having to hurt her without a decent explanation. I especially didnt wanna talk about it because of Liam. Liam told me exactly not to do this, that she was different and there had to be another way. He asked me not to break her heart. How can I tell him I betrayed him like that. But im sure now that he has had time to reflect, he must see reason to my madness. 

“Harry you didn't...” Liam continued.

“D-didnt what?” Nialls head looked at mine and then back to Liam.

“Harry! I told you not too!”

“I HAD TOO LIAM!” I darted up. “But did you think I wanted too? Did you think I enjoyed it? I am doing this for her! Did you think I wanted to let go of possibly the best thing I have ever had? NO. But I had to! Do you think it was easy to break her heart? Did you think it was easy to walk out that door. Do you think its easy for me to have her hate me? Do you think for one second I dont wish I could turn back time and take it all back! This isn't a movie Liam! This is Life!” 

I couldnt take it anymore. The pain rose up, and I ran into Lou's room. I started to pace as I ran my fingers through my dark curls. I heard footsteps heading this way and halt at the doorway. I paced towards the wall and stopped in front of it. I punched it as hard as I could before turning around leaning on it, breathing heavily. 

“I-I” I started “I want her back guys.” Tears filled in my eyes again, I started to walk towards the guys as I sucked in my tears. Louis shh-ed me and walked towards me. Embracing me with a hug.

The rest of the mates gathered around me hugging each other. It was like one of our group hugs we did up on stage.

“Please dont tell her any of this. Promise me.”

They all said okay, yeah, sure. Except for Liam. 

I didnt care though I just buried my head into Lou's shoulder and let some tears fall.

Kenzies POV

I someone knock on my door, I sprung off the couch. I was hoping it would be Harry. That he would march back in here and apologize for everything and then kiss me again. I hoped he would say he was wrong and he did feel something. But I knew it wasn't going to be him. I knew it was Becca. She was the only person I had called to come over. I opened the door and she stood there with a concerned look on her face. She had ice cream tubs in her hand. I let her inside with out saying a word. 

I closed the door behind her and just stood there. I didnt really want to move. She set her stuff down on my table.

“Kenz,” She said walking back towards me, wrapping her arms around me in a tight embrace.

I hugged her back, I could feel tears coming to my eyes again. I couldnt stop them though. They all just fell. I hugged her tighter and tried to catch my breath. 

“So what happened love?” she said leading my towards my couch.

I sat down next to her, her hands intertwined with mine,

“That's the thing.” I began, “I dont even know. He just walked out, he said it was better off like this.” I sniffled a few times and looked down at my hands that were locked with Beccas, I wished those were Harrys hands. I wish Harry was still here.

“I liked him, I liked him a lot.” 

“And he likes you too!” she said trying to reassure me.

I shook my head, another tear falling. “No. No he doesnt, or else he wouldn't have left.”

“Kenzie, I dont know why he left, but I do know he does like you. Niall and I both agree. Remember that night we were all here. Kenzie you should have seen the way he cuddled you. Like he was trying to protect you.” 

Becca's last words took a drop. He focus drew away from me, the look on her face told me she was thinking. 

“What? What is it?” I asked.

“N-Nothing.” She shook herself out of her thoughts and brought her attention back to me.

Feeling hopless, I looked back down. 

"I-I dont know what i did wrong" i cried laying my face in her lap.

"Shh, nothing, you didnt do anything wrong." Becca ran her fingers through my hair. She knew that was one way to come me down.

"Shh, just go to sleep. Okay? Everything will me okay."

"I just want Harry back." a tear fell from my eye.

"I know love. You've had a long day. Just rest"

I didnt wanna rest though. I just wanted to look into Harrys green eyes again, kiss his lips for one more time, and feel his loving embrace. 

But with Beccas gentle hands i felt myself getting tired. I was now more calm, and suddenly, I feel asleep.