Paralyzed

Reasons

Kenzies POV 

I woke up, its been six days, ive dont nothing for six days. Well, isnt my life productive. It's been almost a week since my last encounter with Harry. I texted him numerous amounts of times with no reply, I texted him for two days straight. After the second day I gave up. I've done nothing for six days. I didnt shower at all until last night when becca made me. She complained the smell was too horrid. I didnt really eat unless becca was over, or I didnt really talk to anyone other than her. Nope, not even Liam.

It was 3:00 p.m. I've slept for at least 15 hours. It was raining outside today, the clouds were a dark gray and the outside streets were covered with people hiding under umbrellas. I didnt wanna go outside, but I wanted to feel cold drops on my skin, I just wanted to feel something other than pain. So I decided to take a walk, a long walk, maybe to Liams house. Only because thats where becca said she would be today. I mean I could drive there, but I didnt want to. 

I took my long brown hair out of its bun, my hair was wavy, it looked cute. I put on a baggy sweater with the words LOVE across it, a pair of skinny jeans, flat heeled boots, and a black beanie. I went to the bathroom to wipe all make up off my face. This is best ive looked in a while. I grabbed a purse, my phone, key, and my wallet. 

I walked out the door and down to the lobby, then outside. I walked down passed town square over to the fancy condo's- where Liam lived – It was only a 30 minute walk, and the rain didnt heavily pour like I hoped, just a small drizzle. Still, I felt calm, for 30 minutes in six days I was finally calm. The smell of the rain made me so happy, I just loved the rain. I loved feeling small droplets of water on my skin. I loved the called wind hitting my face, making goosebumps rise. Now people ask me all the time why I love the rain? I guess you could say because it reminds me of love and happiness. Most romantic movies you watch, theres always a powerful love scene in the rain. Take the Notebook for example. When Allie and Noah have a passionate kiss and make up, reuniting themselves together. Then they go back to Noahs house, soaked, and still making out. Then something happens, NO they dont have sex. They make love. See, that was all cause of the rain. Okay maybe not, maybe that would have happened regardless of the rain, but I think it was because the rain. 

Why can't that happen to me? Why can't Harry be right behind me chasing me down, on his knees, apologizing to me. In the rain. Then we kiss and go back to his house and sex. Just, ugh, why. I dont wanna think about Harry, all I get from it is pain. I went on this walk to not fell pain. 

I shook the thought of it out of my mind as I approached Liams house. I was now soaked. I rang the door bell, and heard a male voice approach the door. 

“K-Kenzie?! Bloody hell! You're soaked! Come in, come in!” Liam urged.

I walked inside. I saw becca and all the boys, except for Harry and Louis. Zayn was on the couch reading and Niall was cuddling with becca. There eyes turned to me as I walked through the door. Zayn lowered his book to look at me. Niall and becca stopped laughing and looked at me. I felt so awkward I just wanted someone to stab me with a knife.

“Here come with me lets get you out of those clothes!” Liam said.

He led me to his room and pulled out some of his sweats.

“Here, when your done, but your wet clothes in the dryer.” he smiled

When he left, I closed the door to his room and began to change out of my wet clothes into his warm dry ones. I did as he said and put my wet ones in the dryer. 

I heard hushed arguing coming from the Living room.

“I think we should tell her! She's just as torn up about this as-” I heard becca speak, but she was interrupted by a new voice.