Jay Halstead x Reader Story/Imagine

(12.2. Nadia Decotis✞)

*Inspired by Chicago PD Season 2 Ep 20 The Number of Rats

**TW// Mentions of Dead body and Death

Our shift was almost over, Nadia left early to get the cake. Everyone was secretly getting ready for Erin's surprise party. I walked down to the front office and waited for Nadia to get here.

It had been a while so I texted Nadia to drive to Erin's and that Trudy would take me. Trudy and I were now ready to go, we walked outside of the district and we were ready to get in the car when I noticed something white on the floor.

"Ma give me a sec," I told her while I walked to where my car was parked.

"Honey, what is it?" Trudy asked me.

As I approached I noticed it was Erin's birthday cake and there was blood spattered next to it. I felt my heart jump to my throat. "TRUDY!" I yelled for her.

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The team was back in the office. The only thing on everyone's minds now was to find Nadia, to find her and bring her home. We knew Yates took her but we were finding it incredibly difficult to find him.

I was sitting with Mouse trying to see if we could spot my car on the highways. I jumped when I felt a hand on my back.

"You okay?" Adam asked me.

"No." I was honest.

"Hey this isn't your fault, you know that right?" Adam tried to assure me.

I gave him a weak nod. I couldn't help but feel this was nothing but my fault. I was supposed to be the one to get the cake, I should be in Nadia's position right now.

Mouse and I had finally spotted my car and we were able to tell he was headed to New York. Hank immediately notified the NYPD asking them to offer their support with this.

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Me, Jay, Erin, Hank, Adam, and I were in New York, a body had been found near the beach and we were asked to make our way to the scene. For some reason I felt numb, it was like I was stopping myself from feeling anything, from even imagining the possibility that this could be Nadia.

We got out of the car and followed the forensic team to where the body was. They uncovered the body of Nadia. I watched as Erin began sobbing, Jay's attention turned to her. I shook my head in denial walking away from the scene.

"y/n." I heard my name being called but I ignored it, just kept walking, faster and faster.

"No no no." I kept whispering to myself. "This isn't real, no no no." I started jogging only to trip and fall to my knees.

"y/n!" Adam was down on his knees in front of me.

"No Adam please tell me this isn't real." My voice began breaking.

"I'm so sorry." Adam was tearing up.

"She can't be dead" I began crying "no she...she can't!" I raised my voice but broke down at that moment. Adam pulled me into his arms. I screamed and sobbed in his arms, I didn't care who was watching.

I couldn't even remember the rest of the trip, I just went numb. Only nodding or shaking my head when talked to and silently crying to myself every few minutes. Erin though did the opposite, pretending like she was okay.