Say My Name [ Teacher-Student Romance -- Robert Downey Jr ]

Ch.25 - She Swears She Doesnt Care

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Something must've been said. A phone call, a text, an email.

Something that would make it all quieten, all go cold again, and leave her just as alone as she felt before.

She has hardly spoken with Robert since the drive home... since the chat with her family. Even though she listens to him almost daily, for hours as he teaches, he doesn't pay her any attention.

Well. Sorta.

She's caught his glance a few times, here and there, and fleeting as it were, it still hurt, his own oval brown orbs maybe expressing the same. Only briefly though as he would keep going on with his day, looking away from her, swiping a hand through his hair recklessly.

She feels isolated again, alone and without warmth. The darkest days as the weeks blurred by just trying to accept the fact she can't talk to him anymore. She ends up sitting in another spot one day, away from being close to him, his eyes, his admirable charisma (all though, maybe, it seems its taken a hit lately) and she tries to get the distance she had had before, both physically and mentally off in another seat, but she was met by two particular people that following day, pulling her back to sit with them.

Izzie had baked the three of them muffins, claims she had gone on a binge the night before and both baked and ate everything out of the fridge. Even the square of butter.

George softly asked her questions about herself, trying to get to know her some more and, you know, it was nice. She's quieter now than she had been before, more uncomfortable than she had previously been with them, for reasons they didn't know. Still her two studying doctors didn't show signs of giving up on her (ad a small part of her had thought they would, that they'd not care if she sat somewhere else, but apparently she had been wrong. For now). It's just hard being so close to Robert, being able to sit so close knowing he could easily at any point look over at her and smile but he doesn't. At least if she were hidden up top somewhere she could trick her mind to think that he just couldn't find her in the crowd, but no.

So, she answers George's questions, ate Izzie's baking, and tries to start over from scratch. Tries to recreate her school routine placing them two as her friendly faces to try and trust.

Her minds still buzzing with the thought of her once trusted person. Well. she still trusts him, a lot. She knows this isn't his doing, him not talking to her, or so she speculates (or convinces herself?). Charlotte understands that between saying goodbye to Robert after had so graciously driven her home, and Mondays class, it hadn't been her fault. Or his. At least that is one less thing taken off her shoulders, out of her ruthlessly self hating brain.

Another thing though, is it really just simply sucks. All blame and pointed fingers taken away because Robert had known, on some level, maybe known about her secret. Collected an idea, or just... he had understood her. Understood she isn't okay, or fine. No one understood her, not Izzie and George (although they, she's sure, have their own ideas), not like he did.

Anyways.

Jay, who sits on her other side, is also becoming a familiar face. Maybe, a friend. Often now he's joining in on their chats, or more specifically Izzie and Georges chats (but shes trying still, she is, the words just aren't coming as easily as before, not with a fully busy brain), and soon enough names were known and once the icebreaker conversation of The Beatles (yet again) came up, they were all a bit more comfortable around each other.