its you | hyunlix

{e i g h t - 0325}

"pick two more." felix said as he put down a +2 card. chan hummed as he just drank water. chan decided to put down another +2 card, "pick up four."

felix laughed, "ahaha," he collected himself and chan quietly laughed, "pick up....." felix took his +4 card and set it in the middle, "eight." chan held his hand, palm against his forehead. "eight cards!! right now!!" felix fluently said in korean.

chan just continued to laugh as he watched felix, "pick up....." chan couldnt contain his laughter as felix sighed out a quiet 'no'. "twelve," chan laughed out. felix's mouth shaped into an 'O'.

he took twelve cards from the deck and saw he had some lucky cards, and decided to keep them. seungmin smiled, as his two australian friends were playing around. yes, seungmin hardly ever showed he cared but there are times when he has to show that he really cares. he even can show affection when needed.

the game continued to go until chan and felix ran out of cards to pick up, and chan won the game. felix was not happy but happy at the same time. "why dont we go do something like to go to an amusement park?" chan asked. felix's face lit up, smiling. "minnie, agree with channie. please~"

seungmin looked at felix's face, showing his cuteness. which he couldn't resist. "sure," he smiled, "just as long as innie comes too."

felix jumped up in excitement, "im calling innie!" felix ran to get his phone. chan looked at seungmin with a smile. "you jealous felix would take me to all rides?"

seungmin scoffed, "no. i just dont want felix to third wheel or feel left out whenever." chan chuckled, "someone's jealous~"

"HE AGREED!! LETS GET GOING!!" the couple chuckled at felix's reaction and excitement. they all went out of the house, and into the car. chan looked at his boyfriend with a smile seungmin understood.

~~~

felix grabbed jeongin's hand, excited to try every ride. "lets go to the monster ride, innie." jeongin chuckled, letting felix drag him around.

seungmin and chan were watching felix and jeongin from behind, felix and jeongin had been going on ride after ride. also, they were practically running around like little kids. seungmin adored how felix would be carefree at times.

he was also jealous of felix's carefree side. chan and seungmin were sitting at the bench on the side, having ice cream. "how can felix be so freely whenever he's excited?" seungmin asked as he had licked the ice cream cone in his hand. chan smiled, "just be carefree of what people see you as. you are one of a kind," seungmin looked at chan, "a special one you are."

seungmin blushed a light pink, "shut up." he moved his gaze in front of him, to be seen two of his friends looking at them with bright, wide smiles. "don't you think they were truly meant for each other innie?" felix had asked jeongin, "yes lixie, they were meant for each other."

"channie and seungmin sitting on a tree," felix began singing, "k-i—," seungmin immediately put his hand over felix's mouth before felix could. chan blushed as he chuckled, seungmin's face was beet red at the moment. jeongin burst out laughing, felix laughed against seungmin's hand and purposely licked it.

"ew!" seungmin removed his hand and wiped it on felix's sweatshirt. the youngest male couldn't help but laugh. felix laughed along with him as chan joined the laughter. seungmin also joined minutes after.

while they all continued to laugh, woojin had watched them from afar. jealousy and disappointment written on his face. boy, he wished he didn't turn things to crap. now that he sees his former group so happy, he wishes he had the same.

"hello babe, let's go to my place." a girl named hana yukio had stood up in front if him after checking him out. apparently, she was a college student. "i'll be your sugar mama, would you like that?" she had asked him. he began looking at her up and down with a smirk splattered on his face. the disappointment and jealousy being masked by his playboy side.

chan knew woojin was around but he didn't want that to ruin his evening he's spending with the three boys in front of him. seungmin had to put up with woojin's actions at home. woojin's parents moved to paris with the money woojin saved for his future plans. so, seungmin's parents had to take in woojin and room him with seungmin.

the eldest watched as his demeanor changed, how he went from jealousy and despair to something he couldnt decipher yet.

~~~

after the amusement park, changbin had texted felix to go to the mall for something he wanted for felix to decide on. jeongin had gotten a phone call from hyunjin that he had wanted to talk.

"i'll be with hyunjin, he said it was urgent." jeongin out his phone away, the three boys he'd hung out with nodded their heads. "i'll go over to your place lixie, right after what hyunjin wants to discuss." jeongin went to hug felix. the affectionate jeongin showed felix was really different today, and the three were confused.

although the affectionate side of jeongin was uncertain, they didn't take it in advantage. they cherished it and loved how he'd show it whenever. though he didn't like getting babied, he'd only have changbin, chan and seungmin baby him. call him selfish for that, but he's set his eyes on changbin for a long time.

"let's get going." chan had said, clasping his hands together. seungmin had begun walking towards chan's car, felix standing next to seungmin as chan ran to catch up with the two.

they had reached the car and entered it. seungmin in the front passenger seat, felix in the back and chan in the drivers side. the car had started up, all buckled in as chan began driving towards the said mall changbin had given them.

felix took out his phone, gave it to seungmin as he didn't want to face any notifications or anything. "can you connect this to the cord?" he asked as seungmin took the phone. "sure, what's your password?"

"0325, it's always been that. and please don't let the others know." felix leaned back against the seat, closing his eyes as his eyes dwelled with unknown tears. he didn't want to cry. but the sudden wave of sadness you get at times you don't want have arrived and it was uncontrollable for felix at the moment.

though, he didn't want to cry. he did, silently. seungmin began worrying but knew not to push felix to speak of his feelings. the two didn't know how much pain felix was in despite their good time together today.

felix wished he could make his feelings disappear, he wish he could go back and replace his mother, in hopes for his father to recover. his father knew his mother only had called him yongbok or bokkie. and felix's father became bipolar, as the doctor recalled when they had a checkup.

missing his happily perfect family. everything became difficult every year, harder to deal with. stressing over school and his mother's death. changbin and hyunjin knew that.

it all became harder since his father was admitted to house ground. and the passcode he had on his phone was the day he lost both his mother and sister, march 25. every year it was hard. and this year hit harder.

2023: yall, i just realized i have two different dates for the death of his sister and mother. sorry about that. i'll fix the date from the previous chapters.