The Red Wolf

Too much

Aiden

"I don't know my real name"

She looked me in the eyes, we both knew what it meant.

The moment she finished pronouncing the sentence, was the moment I finally got my wits back.

I could breathe again, I was aware of my surroundings, my dizziness stopped, like the past few minutes were all in a dream and I just woke up.

My logical sense came back in a hit like a light switch.

What the hell happened to us?! How did we come to this?

One minute I am drunk as a kite, the next I am all over her, now I... She...

She doesn't know her name... She can't say the rejection lines.

They have to be accurate, both of our full names and ranks need to be accurate.

Why is everything going so wrong tonight? Even the thing I was so scared about throughout the night is fucking messed up.

We can't reject each other.

She ruined me.

After a few moments of silence, all I could feel was...

An utter fucking rage.

"How is that even fucking possible!?!" I knew I was getting my answer from Robin, but I still looked to the sky when I yelled that in frustration. I was wondering if the moon goddess is laughing at me or something.

That spiteful bitch.

Robin crossed her arms and avoided eye contact. She looked like she wanted to be anywhere else in the world right now, like I was the one who doomed her and made her feel uncomfortable.

Phan tried to calm me down but it was a little too late.

"What?! What did I do to you now Robin? Or whoever the fuck you are!" I shouted.

She kept staring sideways, remaining still in her place.

I know. I am so fucking confused, I wasn't probably ready for the rejection to happen right now, and I just a minute ago was kissing her fucking neck. Well, Phan did. I probably looked right now from an outsider's perspective like I was insane.

But the option to reject was now completely off the table whether I wanted to or not

I was mad, beyond mad. I didn't know how to deal with this and my drunk ass didn't help.

It was even worse seeing her unresponsive and just nearly uncomfortable. I wasn't the bad guy here. She is the one at fucking fault here!

"Well, thank you for two weeks of false expectation. You really are something you know? If you wanted the rejection this badly, at least you could have made the effort to remember your fucking name!" I spit out.

I knew I wasn't fair, I was so frustrated from the day's events that I took it out on her.

My lifelong mantra, ten years of building my goals as a leader...

All ruined in one night.  

Robin finally looked at me.

Finally, fucking finally, she was expressing a true raw emotion too, her true honest opinions.

Her thoughts of me.

"You know what? Fuck you! You have fucking everything and you act like a spoiled brat. Boo Hoo, little Aiden didn't get to have a slut as a Luna without a mate bond sitting on his nerves. How about you go and lose control again like a drunk child so Phantom can almost rape someone else from the party huh?! " She burst out.