Finding your heart || Levihan

Chapter 9

*Hange's POV*

I had stood there heartbroken. Tears fell like a waterfall down my eyes. I could feel my body shaking uncontrollably as I reached for my phone to call Moblit. He didn't answer. So I texted and his reply almost made me throw up.

Right before my eyes, was my best friend, Nanaba with my boyfriend, Moblit. In the same restaurant we had our first date and the same place he asked me to be his girlfriend. He was cheating on me and I saw it with my own two eyes. The first time I called, he looked at his phone and decided not to answer. And when I texted, he reluctantly answered and dropped his phone to turn to Nanaba, smiling. He looked happier with her than with me.

What did she have that I didn't?

And this explains everything. His whole "an urgent call came from work" and that bullshit he made up everyday as to why he couldn't spend time with me. The tears built up more as I closed my mouth with one hand and clutched my stomach with my other.

I couldn't bear seeing them holding hands and laughing with each other. So as fast as I could, I walked to my car bumping into several people. As soon as I got in, I attempted to calm down. My eyesight had become blurry from my tears and I felt like my head was being hammered.

Is this what it feels like to find out your being cheated on?I
To have your heart broken?

I couldn't seem to feel better so I searched my bag for any Paracetamol. I couldn't find one and that was not helping my situation. So I tried taking in a good amount of fluid. I don't know how long I stayed, however it was really late as it was almost 9. I started the car and headed home.

The drive home was painful. I almost passed the red light three times and had two sudden stops that pulled me forward making my headache worse. As soon as I got into the house, I got Paracetamol. I washed my face so it didn't look like I'd been crying. I looked terrible, my mascara was smudged and my hair was in worse than a mess.

Even after washing my face so many times, the thought of Moblit with Nanaba brought a constant stabbing in my heart. A few minutes after I came back home, I heard Moblit's car. I quickly rushed to the bed with my phone to look as if I had been busy whilst he was away.

Another minute or so, I heard the door open. And then water running. And a few more footsteps. And then our bedroom door flew open.

"Hey", he smiled hanging his jacket. It made me feel utterly disgusted. But I didn't show any emotions.

"Hi..." , I replied only to hear a crack in my voice. He turned to look at me after hearing my voice. Then headed to the bed. At that moment, my survival instincts kicked in. I quickly got up, grabbed a pillow and headed to the door.

"Hange, where are you going?"
"Downstairs. I'm sleeping downstairs for today" , I replied my voice still cracked.

He looked at me puzzled "why can't you sleep here?"

Why couldn't I? Maybe because the thought of sleeping with a cheat who fakes everything is disgusting but I came up with an excuse. Like I've always done.

"I just feel like sleeping downstairs. I... uh... It's warmer downstairs that it is up here"
A mistake I made was sniffing. He shrugged his shoulders in a way of saying okay. I headed towards the door and felt him grab my arm.

"Hange, have you been crying?"

Shit. So much for hiding it.
"No. I just have a slight cold", I replied forcing a smile. As soon as he let go I headed downstairs and decided I was sleeping on the couch.

After that day, I distanced myself from him. I didn't bother asking where he was when he was away. Nanaba still acted nicely at work. She smiled at me but she didn't know the pain I was going through. I completely almost gave up in life. I couldn't speak to Levi. He had his issues to deal with. And he didn't really want to see me that often. That was how I interpreted what he said. I couldn't leave Moblit either. I would be homeless.

Erwin was constantly flirting with me and had the courage to ask me out. But at this point, I don't trust men. I don't trust anyone in general. You never know people's intentions and some smiles can be fake. Some of my students were getting worried. Sometimes, whilst teaching I would break down into tears and have Armin attempt to help his classmates whilst I took sometime to calm down. Rico was always there for me whenever I felt miserable.

Finally after two weeks of cold silence towards Moblit he decided to speak to me. At night. I was once again on the couch with my phone searching for apartments. I heard someone coming down the stairs and quickly turned off my phone. I looked up at Moblit. He was standing looking at me as if he was ready to yell.

"Okay start talking. What is wrong with you? What do you think your doing? For two weeks, you've insisted on sleeping on this goddamn couch. And your constantly crying at work. Nanaba told me. What is going on?"

" it's not like you've ever cared from the start. So don't act like you care now. It's clear you don't", I answered harshly. He looked taken aback with my reply.

"What are you on about? What do you mean I never cared? Just stop confusing the hell out of me! Answer me, Hange!"

" what are you yelling for? It's late"
He breathed in and out in desperation clenching his fists. I bit my lips and opened my mouth to speak.

"Why won't you just break up with me?"

He paused and faced me.
"What?"

"You heard me right. You'd prefer..." I suddenly stopped and tears filled my eyes. The thought of the two of them and their date together playing on repeat made me too vulnerable. I was drying my tears trying to find my words.

"Babe-"
"Don't you dare call me that again", I paused him halfway. "Go find your Nanaba"

His jaws dropped hearing this statement.
" what did you just say? " I remained silent. Then he fired another question.
'How did you find out? " ,

"How did I find out? I saw you with her. The same place where YOU, Moblit asked me to be your girlfriend. You decided to cheat on me with my best friend. Why couldn't you have just broken up with me? why did you have to cause me so much pain. why are you so selfish? You were never loyal in this relationship!"

His eyes went from completely shocked to angered.
"You weren't loyal either"
"What?"
" what's up with you and Levi? It clear you'd rather be with him. Not me. I was literally your second choice after he got together with Petra. Do you want to deny it? "

My head had started hurting again. He's right. I have had feelings for Levi. Moblit was my second choice after Petra and Levi started dating.

"But unlike you, Moblit. I put actual effort into fixing us. You just..."

I couldn't bear it anymore. I stood up and headed upstairs. I could hear him calling after me. I switched on the light and grab a little case. I threw a few clothes in and a few essentials like hair brush and tooth brush. Moblit eventually had an idea of what I was doing and reached out to stop me.

"You are not thinking straight" , he told me constantly attempting to stop me. I finished, grabbed the case and headed downstairs grabbing one of the car keys.

"Hange, you're smart so don't act dumb. Where are you even going to go?"
"Anywhere away from you" I replied opening the door
"This is stupid. Think about your decisions"
"Guess what the best part about this is", I said turning and glaring at him. He looked at me waiting to hear what I had to say.

"We're over".

And with that I slammed the door behind me.

A/N: Hiiii! How you doinnnn?!!! Anyhow making Moblit the bad person seriously kills me. Like he's actually such a gentleman 😭 I'm so sorry Moblit I hope this doesn't ruin your reputation. Of being the guy who once actually saved Hange. Gosh my heart 😭 well next chapter coming soon ;) hope you love it so far.