Finding your heart || Levihan

Chapter 18

I stared at her trying to process the question. What was Hange to me? Was she just a friend, less or more. At this point I was confused. But from the look on her face, I could tell she was desperate. It looked like a question she had been keeping in for too long.

"I... I dont know. A friend? Maybe? Or more?"

She was looking at her fingers, her bangs covering her eyes. What sort of deep question was this? It got me thinking ever since she arrived, I've treated her very differently from how I would've treated her whilst dating Petra. If Hange was to get the slightest bit hurt, i knew i would be the most worried. I knew if something worse like death was to happen, my world would crumble. But before I answered her, i wanted to know the reason behind this question.

"Why do you ask?"

She breathed in slowly before putting on a determined face "Levi... I know you probably don't see me the same way, but I have had feelings for you. I don't know if you've noticed or not but that feeling has been there for a long time. Even before dating Moblit. I used him to get over my feelings for you after you got together with Petra. And I know I sound like an absolute bitch using Moblit but I didn't have any other choice. I grew to love him but the love ended up unrequited and in the end my feelings for you still didn't change."

She almost rushed her entire confession but it only made me smile.

"And you didn't tell me earlier because you were scared of rejection?"

"How did you know?"

I guess its my turn now "Because I can say the same for myself. Petra was the one who asked me out and our entire relationship had just been her and her overprotective self. Up until now I don't know if I see you as more than just a friend but I do know if anything were to happen to you and I wasn't there to save you, I wouldn't see the point in living"

Her eyes lit up and it brought a smile to my lips. If she's the only on who can make me smile, laugh, scream, and make me express my emotions in front of her then I guess my question' s answered. Maybe I do love Hange. Maybe I've always done. She stood up stretching and I stood up too but this was only to hug her. It was clear she was shocked at first but then hugged me back but her chin on my head. She was showing off the fact that she was only about 10cms taller than me.

I'll grow taller. Eventually.

***

It had been nearly a month and my new girlfriend and I had moved into our new apartment. Farlan and Isabel taking the old one. I was still running the cafe but I was still not changing the name. Hange finally got her strength to go to work everyday and teach those rascals whatever it is she teaches them. Everyday for me was amazing. I would receive a text from Hange once in a while during work with either her telling me that mr eyebrows was flirting with her again or that Eren and Jean were at detention and she was sick of scolding both of them.

And then the best day of the year arrived. It was christmas and also, funny enough, my birthday. I had planned an entire date with Hange. It was meant to be a late night date so I asked her to meet me outside one of the restaurants in the city centre at eight. She was with Nanaba doing whatever girl things they do so I stood in the cold for a good thirty minutes waiting for her. Finally, she arrived.

"Levi! What do you think?"

I rubbed my eyes countless times. Hange Zoe was in a dress. It was literally unbelievable. I'd only seen her wear a dress once. At the party that I don't want to be reminded of. But this was a different one. It wasn't seductive but she looked absolutely stunning in it. It was a red dress with bits of white at the very end. Along with her dress was a mini purse which had whatever it had in it. Probably lipstick and girl stuff that did not sound like what Hange would use. All for the joy of christmas. And she had her hair down for once in her life. Some of her bangs still dropping out and covering a bit of her face but it all made her pretty either way. And finally, she didn't have her glasses on. Not that it mattered. This was purely paradise.

"It's okay", i replied.

"Nanaba helped me with it. That's why I took so long. Sorry", she was still grinning. I owe you one Nanaba.

I intertwined my hands with hers and took her into the restaurant. The streets were lighted up, christmas trees with blinding lights, filled restaurants and so on. It was slightly noisy but I didn't mind. Everywhere you looked there were either couples, or families or friends and I was with Hange. Best way to spend my christmas and birthday.

It was Hange's choice to try hawaiian for dinner but she didn't want to have too much considering we were getting something else later. After eating I took her out and we got hot chocolate from the closest cafe. It was good. But not as good as mine. Then from there I took her to play a few of the games you see in city centres, which obviously, I won her a panda with huge beady eyes that scared me for staring at it for too long. But Hange found it adorable. Half way through our date I got the feeling I would fall asleep. But I wanted this to be perfect for me and her. And to end the night, I took her to see a movie. The entire time she had her head on my shoulder and her hands in mine.

I hated to think that this night was over but then Hange asked me to come with her. At first I was reluctant and surprised but I still did. She took me a well lighted area with barely anyone there. It was beautifully decorated in flowers and I was in complete loss of words at the sight of the place.

"Did you have anything in mind for a birthday present?", She asked me searching her bag.

"You", I teased wrapping a scarf round her neck considering she wasn't covered properly and her hands were cold. She laughed lightly.

"Put your hand out. Like this", she said putting her hands out, her palms facing the floor and the back of her hand facing me. I imitated her keeping a default face.

She pulled a ring and slid it into my fourth finger.

I looked at it for sometime like it was a normal thing before she got her hand and showed me, revealing a ring on her fourth finger as well.

"See? Now were the same!", She was grinning.

I looked at her hand and then at mine. Then I felt like I had been struck by lightning. She... She just proposed to me. I've never met a loser and an idiot like me in my entire life. I should've been the one to propose to her but I didn't. Instead she did.

Grabbing the scarf round her neck, I pulled her in for a kiss, gently tucking her hair behind her ears each time we took a break for air. This was the best present ever.

"Thanks four-eyes"

A/N: WELLLLLL!!! THIS IS HOW IT ENDS :-) :-) I HOPE YOU ENJOYED EVERY BIT OF IT! I ENJOYED WRITING IT LOLZ!!! Please do share this book with anyone interested in Levihan and if none of the contents pleases you I'm really sorry. Once again thank you very much for reading this!!!