I Will Always Love You - A Niall Horan Love Story

Chapter Thirty Five

*Niall's POV*

I sat on the plane with Charlie fast asleep on my shoulder.

We had been flying for almost 15 hours now, with another 8 hours ahead of us.

How could she hurt herself?

Doesn't she realise what she was doing?

It almost killed me to open the bathroom door to see the razor on the floor and her arm bleeding.

I haven't slept since she cut.

And I don't think I will be able to sleep ever again.

I turn to my right, where Louis sat with Eleanor. They were both awake, but weren't laughing, just talking in hushed voices.

No one has laughed since Charlie self-harmed.

"Louis, Eleanor," I whisper.

They turn their heads to face me.

"Why would she do it?" I ask.

"Do what?" Eleanor asks.

"Why would she hurt herself?"

Louis speaks up, "She just lost her mum. I think she was doing it to get rid of the pain. That's why most people do it."

"Yeah, but didn't she think of what she would have done to everyone else, let alone herself?"

"Obviously not," Eleanor says. "At the time, she wouldn't have been thinking about anyone else but getting rid of the pain. All her thoughts were on the fact that her mum passed away, and she wanted to get rid of the pain she felt."

"How do you know so much about this?" I ask.

"When I was about 14, I had this friend. She was my bestfriend, actually. One day, I caught her cutting herself, and I stopped her. I asked her why she was doing that, and she said for her entire life, she was abused by her parents, and cutting was the only way to take away the pain." She explained." I told her to never cut again, and she promised, but two years later," she started tearing up, "I found her in her horse stables, hanging by a rope. She had taken her life." She was full on crying now and Louis and I were too.

"Louis, what if Charlie does that? What if I lose her? I love her with all my heart and if I lose her, I will die. What am I supposed to do to prevent her from cutting or killing herself?"

"Help her. You're not going to lose her. She will be ok. Just help her see everything she will lose if she hurts herself again."

I sigh.

*Charlie's POV*

I had awoken from sleep, but I wanted to try to get back to sleep, so I kept my eyes closed with my head on Niall's shoulder.

I then hear Niall call Louis and Eleanor, and then they get into a conversation about me.

And how I cut.

When I heard Eleanor's story, I silently began to cry.

And then Niall said, "Louis, what if Charlie does that? What if I lose her? I love her with all my heart and if I lose her, I will die. What am I supposed to do to prevent her from cutting or killing herself?"

He thinks he will lose me?

I silently promised myself not to hurt myself anymore.

Because I don't want to end up like that.

I can't hurt Niall, and hurting myself hurts him.

So I won't cut or kill myself. I won't do any self-harm, what-so-ever.

I think I fell back asleep, because Niall woke me up when the plane had landed.

We got off, went and grabbed our bags, and then caught a taxi back to my house.

When we arrived back at home, my dad was waiting outside for me.

I dropped my bag, and ran up to him and just hugged him, crying again.

"I know, sweetie, I know," he whispered, petting the back of my head.

After we pulled away, Niall gave me my bag, he said hello to my dad, and so did the other boys. Daniel was just as broke as I was.

We went inside and sat down in the lounge room.