Kamala gets up and kisses Doug's cheek before making her way to the en suite.
He smiles and changes the bed sheets as Kamala shower's with a huge smile on her face.
She comes out in a towel and Doug smiles at her. She dries off and gets in her pajamas as Doug gets up and takes off his shirt to put on one of his hoodies.
Kamala grabs her Ipad.
As Doug puts on the hoodie, he asks "do you want one? it's kinda cold"
"Yes please" she says, deep down she was excited to receive one of his hoodies.
He grabs a random one and hands it to her "here you go".
She puts it on and smell's it. "Thank you baby."
"you're welcome darling".
"Dougie we need to start planning and organizing".
"true".
"Where do we even begin?"
"Colors and layout".
"are we talking about a nursery?"
"yeah that's what i thought you were talking about?" He says.
"Yeah, but we don't even have a room for the baby, but for at least the first 4 months of our babys life outside the womb i would like it if the baby was in here with us, it'd be easier and i won't get so emotional and we know the baby is safe. What did you and Kerstin do
when Cole and Ella were born?"
"they had their own nursery's but if you want the baby in our room that's fine".
"Okay thank you" she says kissing him with a smile.
"but before we start thinking about all that, do you want to find out the sex?"
"that doesn't really matter to me, i have both gendered children already, but if you want a boy or girl that's fine with me".
"Oh"
"yeah but if you want to, i'm completely fine with that".
Kamala just nods.
"are you okay?"
"Yeah" she put's her Ipad down, then get up.
"are you sure" He says getting up and stopping her.
"yeah."
"love what's wrong?" he asks, concerned.
"I just want you to be involved" she says looking at my feet.
"it does feel like i am what are you talking about?"
"Well it doesn't feel like it to me."
"oh i'm sorry" He says as he moves out of her way.
Kamala just looks at him and scoffs, then makes her way to the bathroom. She wants him to talk to her about the baby and help her make the big decisions in preparation for their baby's arrival, about her worries and fears, and not just the nursery.
He looks at her confused "what?"
"Nothing" she sniffles and continues walking to the bathroom.
"hey what's wrong, listen baby, if i said something wrong i'm sorry and i don't mean it".
In the bathroom she starts to throw up.
Doug hears her "baby are you okay?" he hears her vomit again.
"baby? can i come in?" he asks standing at the door.
"Yes" Kamala groans before throwing up again.
"okay". He walks in to find Kamala on the floor, kneeling beside the toilet throwing up. Tears are streaming down her face. She doesn't look up as she leans her head against the toilet seat and sniffles.
Doug wipes her mouth with the cloth, then wipes her tears with his thumbs.
Kamala slowly moves her gaze to his eyes and it only causes more tears to flow. "I'm sorry" she cries.
"hey hey it's okay" he pulls her closer.
She sobs against his chest. "it's okay, i'm here, it's okay. i'm so sorry i said those things"
"No baby, you're fine it's my fault. I promise you did nothing wrong."
"no, no, i should've never said that. i'm sorry".
"I promise, you are very involved and I can't expect you to be involved in my anxieties and worries if I don't open up about them."
"no no i need to be involved so i can help you through them".
"I know but if i don't tell you them then how can you help."
"i don't know but i don't want you to beat yourself up for it okay?"
I wipe my nose and nod "Okay, i'll try not to".
"i love you more then anything, and there's nothing that will change that okay? and i love
our baby too. there's no doubt about that".
"I know baby, and we love you too."
"good, and don't ever let that change, no matter what happens, what i say, or what someone else says my love for you two would never change".
She wraps her arms around him and rests her head on his chest.
"i love you two so much okay?" he kisses her head gently.
"Okay Dougie, I understand."
"good" he smiles, then kisses her forehead.
"i love you" he says.
"I love you too." she says before standing up to stand flush the toilet before pulling her pants down to sit on the toilet.
Doug walks out giving her privacy.
When she is done she washes her hands and walks out.
Doug smiles at her as she climbs in bed and lay beside him. He pulls her closer, holding on
tightly.
She lay her head on his chest then whispers "can i ask a question?"
"you can ask me anything love"
"What sort of things did you do to be involved in her pregnancies?" she asks.
"i can't answer that question because i wasn't really involved".
"Oh okay."
"yeah..."
" It's okay don't worry."
"okay, i won't"
"were you at least there for her when she was in labor?"
"yeah i was" he says.
She nods and lays her head back on his chest.
He smiles and kisses her head.
"tomorrows friday are you working?" she asks.
"yeah".
"Oh okay that's fine. I don't have to so I'll pack."
"okay"
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Fearless Love
FanfictionDoug and Kamala are set up on a blind date by their friend Chrisette and upon meeting eachother they realize they were made for eachother. Kamala tell's Doug about her desire to become a mother, Doug knows she would be a perfect mother and he would...
