Almost 2 weeks later Kamala goes to make a coffee but finds they are out of decaf. "Dougie?" she calls from the kitchen. He walks in "Yes my love?"
"Can you please watch Kali while i go to the store?"
He nods "yeah of course".
Kamala grabs her keys and purse "Do you want anything baby?" she asks.
"No I'm good" he says.
"Okay" she kisses him and leaves.
After leaving the store Kamala finds herself taking a turn she never takes.
●☆Kamala POV☆●
I can't believe I'm doing this, I never thought I'd find myself driving to HIS house. I take a deep breath before knocking on his door. I hear him coming to the door, speaking "who is...it" he stands there in shock after opening the door.
I swallow the lump in my throat as our eyes meet.
"Hi Dad....I just wanted to come by and tell you I'm engaged. Im not going to expect you to come to the wedding but I thought I'd tell you in person since you couldn't answer my texts when I told you I was pregnant or when I told you i brought your granddaughter into this world safely, even though you read them and you couldn't even answer a christmas card with your granddaughters first christmas photos. Maya is right I dont need you in our lives, you are a pathetic and lousy father."
"Kamala, listen I didn't mean too. I'm busy I'm sorry but that's no way to talk to me, I'm still your father"
"Oh yeah some father right, you left mommy to raise Maya and I alone,
you've had nothing to do with us for years."
"Because I've been busy I'm sorry but me leaving was
the best decision".
I scoff as tears fill my eyes. "Too busy for your own daughters? Bullshit, you have no idea how that has affected us."
"Listen Kamala I'm sorry okay is that what you wanna hear?"
"Sorry won't fix it." I turn to walk away.
"Kamala wait" he grabs my wrist.
"What?" I say turning to look at him.
"What's her name?"
I take a deep breath and softly say, "Her name is Kali Shyamala Barbara Emhoff, because like mommy said a culture that honours strong women, raises strong women."
He looks into my eyes, slowly letting go of my arm. I compose myself and walk away.
He watches me walk away and drive off.
I get home and walk inside with the groceries and start putting them away as Cole and Ella come and say they'll be home by curfew. I check the supply of breastmilk in the fridge and get 24 hours worth out of the freezer and put it in the fridge.
Doug walks in "Hey love".
"Hey, she asleep?" I ask grabbing a bottle of wine and a glass, filling it to the top.
"Yeah...are you okay?" he asks, frowning.
I drink the whole glass at once. "Yeah..." I say as I start to unbutton and unzip my pants. "What do you want for dinner? and...fuck me and don't be gentle." I pull my pants down to my knees and lay my chest on the island with my feet apart.
"woah woah woah woah okay chill umm what happened? are you okay?" he asks lovingly.
I sigh and pull my pants up. "I went to see my father.."
"oh...that explains it" he says.
"explains what??" I snap, defensively.
"Okay calm down. What I mean is you just drank a whole, entire glass of wine in one sip and I haven't seen you drinking in awhile".
"Well duh I was pregnant" I cross my arms as my walls, that Doug had torn down begins to go back up.
"Okay but like you haven't been pregnant for like 3 months"
"yeah.."
"sooo..." he says.
"what?" I say.
"I don't like this at all, this isn't- this isn't right I think you need to talk about it to feel better".
"What don't you like,the drinking or wanting you to fuck me in the kitchen?"
"all of it" he says looking at me.
I scoff. "If you knew him then you'd understand."
"Then tell me about him"
"What do you want to know? How he left us or the fact he doesn't even love his daughters?"
"Why he affects you so much, why he has you drinking and immediately
going to having me fuck you I think is a big one".
I lean against the island with my arms crossed still. "Because he.....after he left I spent so many
nights wondering what I had done wrong. Yeah we spent time together when I was younger, but he wasn't there the way a father should be. Yes he taught me to be fearless but he was not there. Growing up without him, you have no idea how that impacted me. Toxic relationships, clearly having daddy issues to have been stupid enough to believe the broken promises of a man 30
something years older than me. I tried so hard to make my father proud, I studied
economic science for him, I gave him multiple opportunities to be involved in my life and he didn't take those opportunities".
●★Doug POV★●
"Baby" I grab her hands "I can't tell you it's gonna be okay or that I understand because I don't, I haven't been through that but the one thing I can promise to you is that I will be here for you whenever you need me".
She looks at me "that's another thing, he doesn't want to be a father to me, so I let you be the tough, dominant but loving and caring man in my life. I prefer the father in you."
I nod and smile slightly as she looks at her feet and nods. I lift her chin "I love you".
She sniffles "I love you too."
I hold her face and kiss her gently. She returns the kiss making me smile before pulling away slowly. "Soo dinner?" she asks.
"not too sure, do you just wanna order out?" I ask her.
Kamala nods "Yeah".
"Okay" I smile.
I watch her put the wine away and wash the glass as I order some food then I go lay down on the couch. Kamala walks in and sits on the other couch.
I sit up and hold my arms open, but she just looks at me unsure I slowly put my arms down and nod as I turn on the tv.
●☆Kamala POV☆●
I look at my hands as Doug turns on netflix "what do you wanna watch?" he asks.
"Um...Idk its up to
you."
"i don't know" he says.
"Oh" I stare into the distance playing with my ring.
There's a knock and Doug gets up to grab the food from the delivery guy. I get up and go to the kitchen to have another glass of wine. Doug walks into the kitchen as I'm putting the glass down. He looks at me and then looks down and opens the food.
I feel ashamed so I grab some food and go sit down in the living room.
●★Doug POV★●
I grab what I want
and walk to the living room, I see her staring at her food and I frown.
She sniffles and wipes her eyes.
I put my plate down and lift her chin and she looks up at me "it's okay, alright, it's okay".
"I saw the disappointment in your eyes, in the kitchen."
"Because I thought I helped and I didn't". She scoots closer to me "No baby you did, I just....I dont know, I had my ass and pussy on display and you turned them down."
"Because I just wanted to have a conversation, I just wanted to figure out what was
wrong"
"Okay." she nods and picks at her food.
I let out a sigh and take my food to the room.
●☆Kamala POV☆●
I put my food in the fridge and go for a walk.
●★Doug POV★●
I feel really bad but Kali ends up waking up so I go tend to her and change her
diaper.
●☆Kamala POV☆●
After calming down, I call Doug and leave him a voicemail "Baby I'm sorry. I'm about to come home we will talk then. I love you." I get a sharp pain in the back of my head then everything goes black.
YOU ARE READING
Fearless Love
FanfictionDoug and Kamala are set up on a blind date by their friend Chrisette and upon meeting eachother they realize they were made for eachother. Kamala tell's Doug about her desire to become a mother, Doug knows she would be a perfect mother and he would...
