𝘖𝘜𝘛𝘌𝘙 𝘉𝘈𝘕𝘒𝘚 𝘐𝘔𝘈𝘎𝘐𝘕𝘌𝘚 + 𝘗𝘙𝘌𝘍𝘌𝘙𝘌𝘕𝘊𝘌𝘚

Selfish - Barry

A/N:
This chapter is inspired by the song "Selfish" by Jordan Davis

This chapter is from Barry's POV the entire time and how he feels.

Little background on this story:
Y/N was the light in Barry's dark world so could you really blame the man for being selfish and wanting more?

May Contain: M/F, Feels, Fluff.
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BARRY'S POV:
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"I'm a bad man
James Dean, kinda Steve McQueen
Straight out the bad lanes
I rolled in and rained down
Like a storm cloud or a heat wave
That make you stay undercover where it's safe
Don't give a damn about the plans you made
We're staying in the bed all day"

I knew I was a bad influence on Y/N from the moment I met her. She is a kook who graduated high school with a scholarship and I'm a pogue who is a drop out and now sells drugs for a living. We were the complete and utter opposites. But as much as I was labelled this bad person, I didn't care either way as long as I had her. I'm selfish when it comes to pretty much everything and she wasn't an exception.

I did feel pretty bad at times when Y/N would plan to hang out with her friends and I would make her cancel so we could stay in bed all day and cuddle. Who am I kidding? I didn't feel bad at all. If anyone asks though, I am a simp and no I do not enjoy cuddling... okay maybe that's a lie but I will continue to deny if anyone asks.

"'Cause I'm selfish
Restless like a river, can't help it
I'm taking what you give me but I still want more
I still want more"

Every second that I've spent with Y/N from the moment I've met her, I've always wanted more. A millisecond without her feels like years. This girl makes me happy and her touch makes me go wild.

"Have you seen yourself in a full-length mirror
Spinning around lately
I'd lie, cheat, and steal
Feel the sweet scent overtake me
But the Lord sent an angel to save me
So he can't blame me
When my hands get a mind of their own
Girl, if they get ahold of you, I ain't never letting go"

Every time my eyes lay on her, I don't know how to explain how I feel... it's indescribable. It genuinely does upset me when she talks so lowly about herself because has she seen herself in a full length mirror? She leaves me speechless at times with how incredibly beautiful she is. I'd do anything for her if it meant she'd have a smile on her face at the end of the day. Y/N entered my life at a time where I was at my lowest and it did feel like she saved me when I was at breaking point. I thank the Lord everyday for bringing an angel into my life. I just hope she knows that I do not plan on ever letting her go. It might sound slightly toxic and controlling but she was and still is the light at the end of the tunnel for me.

And I still want more...

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I didn't really know what to do for this one so I do apologise if it's trash and I might redo it in the future.

Thank you for reading 🤍