𝘖𝘜𝘛𝘌𝘙 𝘉𝘈𝘕𝘒𝘚 𝘐𝘔𝘈𝘎𝘐𝘕𝘌𝘚 + 𝘗𝘙𝘌𝘍𝘌𝘙𝘌𝘕𝘊𝘌𝘚

Off My Mind - John B

A/N:
This chapter is inspired by the song "Off My Mind" by Joe P

Little background on this story:
Y/N was never good at goodbyes and John B just wanted the girl off his mind after she broke his heart so easily.

May Contain: M/F, Feels, Fluff
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JOHN B'S POV:
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While JJ goes and gets me another drink at this kegger, I'll try my best to try and convince Kie and Pope that I'm fine for like the hundredth time.

Two weeks ago, my beloved girlfriend Y/N upped and left Outerbanks. She never said goodbye and I never knew she would leave my side... she just did. To say waking up on that Thursday morning and she had blocked me and wanted nothing to do with me, hurt. It hurt more than anything... but if she's going to just do that so easily, then I'm not going to sit here and mop around... I'll just move on.

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Y/N'S POV:
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I never thought that I would do this to John B but I couldn't look him in the eyes and tell him what was going on. So I just left and blocked him... I ended up messaging Kie about what had happened when I left. But the thought of John B with tears running down his face, broke me.

I was told two months ago that my father had gotten a job in New Jersey, New York and we had to move there from Outer Banks. No matter how much I begged, the move was final before I even knew it. So I spent every day left, loving John B with all of my heart and just trying to make the most of my time. I didn't want anybody knowing that I was leaving until I had left as I didn't want my time left to be a pity party or for any of the pogues to beg me to stay. I had no choice and I left my whole entire heart in that bay, with him.

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JOHN B'S POV:
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It had been four months since Y/N left me and I hadn't heard a single word from her. All I know is that she lives in New Jersey now from Kie. I've been with a few girls since Y/N as a way to get her off my mind. But the one I'm seeing now, I think she might be legit. I know it's early to say but, I think I might even possibly love her? The girl is named Sarah Cameron and our favourite past time thing to do is to drive around in the twinkie and I show her all of my favourite spots Y/N and I use to go.

When Y/N first left, I use to spend all my time at those spots, crying. I genuinely thought I could die at times because the heartbreak caused me so much pain in my chest.

But now she's off my mind... well that's what I say when anyone ask's me.

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Y/N'S POV:
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Four months and I miss that fricking Routledge boy every day. I've heard that he has moved on now but I swear every car that passes by, I think it's the twinkie for a second. Or when a stranger passes me in the street... I have to do a double look as I thought I saw him.

There's been a few times where I've driven and put my hand around the headrest in my Honda Accord out of habit. When I use to do that, he would grab onto the wheel but he's not here and I never gave him what he wanted... an explanation as to why I never said goodbye.

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JOHN B'S POV:
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It has now been an whole entire year since Y/N left my side. I found out just yesterday that she had moved away from New Jersey and now lives on the West Coast to get away from her family. I don't know why she never came back here but she must've known that she isn't welcomed. She isn't welcomed by anyone except me... I do miss her.

But now she's even further away from me to fall in love with her again and I'm still seeing this Sarah girl.

I just hope that one day, Y/N Y/L/N will be off my mind.

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I haven't really proofread this one but I wanted to post a chapter today. I might redo this one in the future! I'm currently sick at the moment (no not from COVID, I'm just not feeling the best). So my head is pounding.

Please excuse my shitty writing

Thank you for reading this if you have 🤍