New Love - Victorious

Chapter 36

(Jade's POV)

As I sit up in an unfamiliar bed, I quickly glance around the large, fancy room I'm in, until I remember where it is I am. I look to my right and see the red hair of Cat sticking up from underneath the covers on the other side of the bed, with the rest of her body completely engulfed.

Yesterday sucked. Plain and simple.

I didn't even want to go to this stupid wedding to begin with. But stupid Vega and her stupid, beautiful, bewitching smile managed to convince me to come. All I could do yesterday was think about her. Seeing her in that gorgeous, red bridesmaid dress just increased my attraction for her.

I thought I could get my mind off her for a short while by dancing with Beck, but then Amy decided to clear the dancefloor because Tori and Eddie were too busy gazing into each other's eyes.

As bad as it sounds, I wish Tori were mine. I wish I was the one who she would look at so lovingly, with those beautiful, brown eyes

But I'm not. And don't get me wrong, I'm so glad Eddie has found someone who makes him so happy. I really care about him, and I don't want to hurt him, but I can't keep these feelings I have for Tori locked up inside me forever. I could barely watch then dancing together on that dancefloor.

I hate feeling like this. I feel so.. 'emotionally vulnerable'... and helpless! I can't do anything about my feelings. I'm Jade fucking West! I'm not meant to be feeling like this.

I get out of bed and get a shower, hoping that I can get some sort of relaxation at this place. While I'm in the shower, I think long and hard about what to do about all of this.

Once I'm out of the shower and dressed, I think I finally know what I need to do.
I know nothing can come of it, no matter how bad I want it to, but I have to tell Tori how I feel.

I leave Cat to sleep in, and decide to take a walk around the hotel grounds,before everyone goes down for breakfast. Hopefully Vega is one of the first people to come down for breakfast, so it would be easier for me to take her aside in private and talk to her.

I walk around the hotel's gardens for a while, thinking about what I should say to Vega. In the gardens, I am greeted by various hotel staff, who I simply ignore, or scowl at,before I then head back to the main ballroom, where breakfast is being served.

As I enter the ballroom, I notice immediately that Tori and Eddie are both already seated, along with Cat. There is no sign of Andre, Beck or Robbie, so I assume they're still asleep. As I walk over to the table they're sat at, Eddie rises to his feet, and is about to walk over to the large breakfast buffet table, before he sees me walking over.

"Hey Jade, I was just gunna get us some bagels and pancakes, do you want anything?" Eddie asks me.

All I do is shake my head and smile at him, so he nods in understanding and makes his way over to the buffet table.
I notice Cat is busy playing with her stuffed toy giraffe and listening to music through her headphones, so this is the best chance I'll have to talk to Tori.
I slowly take the seat next to her, and instantly she smiles that perfect smile at me. I have to quickly hide my face to stop her from seeing me blush.

Blushing? I feel like a complete idiot.

"Heyy" she says in a cheery tone.

"Hey" I say back, in a much quieter voice than hers.

"Uh, Ve-Tori, I need to uh.. I think you should know that..."
Ugh why the fuck is this so difficult?

"Jade, is everything okay?" she asks as she gently places a hand on mine.