Only Sleeping ✔️

Chapter 19 | Will

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Please come over.

I bite my lip after hitting send, almost regretting it. It sounds whiny and like I'm begging, but I kind of am. It's been a long week. A hard week, arguably my hardest week.

Having Mason shut me out and tell me he's done after what I thought was an intense night. A night when he finally kissed me and whispered sweet words comforting me has had me messed up. Frankly, I was confused, hurt, and angry. I still am, but having avoided each other for a week also meant I've been sleeping alone. For some reason that hasn't been easy. I've been sleeping here and there but it's broken and unsatisfying. I wake up just as tired as when I went to bed.

So I finally caved.

I stare at the text, 2:00 am Friday night and I texted him. I sigh when he doesn't respond and decide that at this point  I don't even care how pathetic it is, I'm desperate and text again.

I can't sleep...Not without you.

Even after I send it I scrunch up my face at how cheesy and like some romance movie it sounds, but maybe it's the sleep deprivation that makes me not care. That doesn't see a problem with me calling Mason back into my life.

All I know is I was sad and angry and now I'm just tied. So fucking tired.

My phone doesn't make a sound and I bite my lip staring at my ceiling willing myself not to cry another tear for Mason, but only a moment later my door creeks open.

I shoot up in bed and my heart pounds at the sight "Mason"

He looks uncomfortable, maybe even guilty.

"Only sleeping, Will" I nod moving over "Only sleeping"

The moment I feel my bed dip with his weight it's like my body has a mind of its own and I'm crawling to his side collapsing into his arms without a second thought.

Mason's breath catches, but he doesn't push me away. His arms wrap around my torso and he squeezes me tighter into him. Pressing his nose to the top of my head and inhaling deeply, before laying his head back and letting out the most content sigh I've ever heard.

I sink into him and within seconds I'm asleep. My body feasting on the satisfying sleep I seem to only get when wrapped in Mason's arms.

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When I wake up the next morning I groan, not wanting to get up, my mind actually foggy with sleep. A feeling I haven't felt in a while.

I blink slowly and I bite my lip when my bed is empty. Almost convinced I imagined Mason coming last night, but his scent is still in the air and that alone has me buzzing to life.

Today is some football game that Gage is so excited to watch and even though I have no desire to hang out with him and his friends I promised I'd hang out for a little while. Gage has been so worried about me. I don't know how to calm him down, but I'm sure socializing is a good start. It's not like I can tell him his best friend broke my heart, not unless I want to ruin that friendship.

I sigh and text Jenna that I'm jumping in the shower, but if she wants to come over in an hour that is cool with me. The one condition I had to hanging out with Gage and his friends was that Jenna could tag along. Lord knows I'll need someone to keep me entertained. Not to mention with Mason there I'll need a distraction as well.