OFFERNAGE [EDITING]

Goodbye

On getting home,the evening sun glowed innocently on me as it is going down gradually.
I walked down the street with my hands still folded around my chest in slight cold.

I can't seem to get all what Trevor said out of my head. This is the first I am been this way towards a guy and I must say, It's a lot to take in.

He really wants me to stay away from him but I can't seem to. Rather,I don't want to.
I already feel attached in ways I can't apprehend.

I bounce on my bed without changing my clothes,looking at my ceiling as usual. The image of Trevor been on me came crashing to my head,making me seat up.
My heart began beating drums again as I sink my face in my hands.

I've been possessed.

"Korah,Mum said you should help her with this". Stephanie shouted, interrupting my wild thoughts.
I took over at her,struggling with a bag filled with raw meat. "She said you should wash and cut it into smaller pieces".

I nod,taking the bag from her and bringing it out.

Stephanie watched me for a while with her brows, arched in disappointment. " Korah".
I look up to her standing akimbo.
"What are you doing?". She asked.

I glance down and saw that I've been adding the unwashed meat to the washed ones.
"Oh..shit,sorry". I frown,biting my lips.

"You've been acting strange these days. What's up?".
"Nothing.. Just stressed from school". I answer immediately, taking the unwashed meat back to the bowl.

I'm truly acting strange...

***

I talked with Bernard on the phone and he concluded that I am beginning to like Trevor. I laughed at his response but he made It clear,stating the reasons why I've been acting differently.

I've never imagined myself liking someone like Trevor. He takes drugs for Christ sake which is something I don't think he can stop. Although, I wish to help me to but staying away from him is his ultimate request.

***
It's been two weeks now and me and Trevor haven't said a word to each other. The memory of what happened is sealed somewhere in me so I've been holding on to that.

I have finally admitted to myself that I do like him but I can't even talk to him. I just stare at him from a distant.

"We are to go to our different talent department right now". Tatiana sang her way to my desk.
For a minute, I wished I can be as high spirited as Tatiana.
"Sure,let's go". I stood up,begging my eyes not to look at Trevor.

"Without me?". Dawn snapped,catching our attention.
She jog up to us.
"You are so small I don't seem to remember you". Tatiana said,laughing.

Dawn smirks. "Whatever. I didn't want to go with you anyway,I wanted to go with Korah".
I tilt my face to the call of my name,pulling my hands from my skirt pocket. I just want to be alone.

Dawn and Tatiana went to their department while I stroll down to mine. Taking a peep from the into the performing department, I saw Trevor singing.

My body suddenly unfolds in goosebumps and I found myself not been able to move forward. He doesn't see me and it's kind of preferable.

I still haven't collected my notebook from Evan. Thinking of it, it would be an indirect opportunity to see Trevor if I go.
I smile at my small plan,taking one last stare at Trevor before walking pass to my class.