Walk With Me 1

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A/N: Please don't be mad at me.

Nicki

I wipe my tears quietly in the privacy of my bedroom.

We never agreed to commit to each other like that at any point so what's the big deal right? I can feel hurt but not angry because we were never exclusive to begin with.

I hear the front door open and footsteps clamoring. It's probably my sister and some friends. This prompts me to dry up my tears.

My face feels hot from all the crying so I get some sips of water in and try to regulate myself with deep breaths.

I turn up the soft Jhene Aiko that plays in the background and breathe to the beat. W.A.Y.S is playing. I honestly love that song so much.

My door opens and I grab my blanket to cover my face.

"Hey, Oni... we brought some Chicago style pizza." She goes quiet but I hear her come closer. "Onika..."

She gently brings the blanket down.

"I'm fine, just tired." I front.

She sighs, "I'll give you some time and come back later."

I look to my doorway and see Rihanna. My heart nearly skips a beat out of fear and anxiety.

She leaves before Ariana looks back.

"I love you big sis."

"Love you too, lil sis."

She goes on with Rihanna.

She unfortunately leaves my door open but I no longer have the energy to go and close it. I simply bury my face in the blankets and pillows in my bed.

I feel too old for these damn issues.

The position is comfortable enough to make me drift off into a light slumber and for the first time I'm peaceful.

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"Pssst."

I feel a hand running through my hair.

"Nicki..."

The touch in my scalp is familiar.

The voice is laced with a bit of frantic-ness, "I need to talk to you. I need to talk to you."

I get up confused because it doesn't sound like my sister. Im honestly so confused when I squint my eyes open and it appears to be Rihanna.

That anxiety and curiosity sinks in. What could she be trying considering we walked away from our last interaction affirming that it was no strings attached? Like why did she feel welcome to come into my bedroom and wake me up from here?

"Hello?"

I notice it's a bit darker outside, the sun is setting a bit more.

I take notice of Rihanna. She's dressed in some Black leggings and a grey pullover sweater. Her hair is in beach waves and she's got light makeup on. I won't deny her beauty.

However she doesn't look well. Nervous, I can say.

"You okay?"

"Look, I don't know how else to tell you this but I need to say it. I can't stall any longer."

She grabs her purse from her side and pulls some pregnancy tests out spilling about 10 on my bed.

My eyes widen and my heart skips a beat. My body quite literally took a screen shot.

I feel tunnel vision like that that you see in the movies.

"I was celibate for a year until I met you that night. You're the other mother." She starts speaking quickly. "If you don't want it I understand but I have resources to raise them. I can do it on my own but I do feel like you should kno--"

I stop her with my hand. I'm in shock, but I definitely won't allow her to raise the child alone.

Initially, I say nothing. I'm too stunned to say anything. I can't articulate any words or anything right now. Just me processing the fact that I made another person unexpectedly with someone after a one night stand.

I finally collect my thoughts.

"We can co-parent, Robyn. We may not be together but I will support you and our child."

She takes a breath of fresh air.

I open my arms and we both sink in. I may not be in love with her but I said what I said and meant it. I care about her because she's the mother of my child. She's in my life now and I'm gonna take care of the both of them.

"Shhh, it's okay."

"I've just been so scared, Nicki."

"Don't be."

My heart breaks seeing her scared.

"I told you, I'm here. You won't go through this alone. I promise you, 1000%." I rub her back a bit.

She rests her head on my chest and I rest my chin on her head.

"It's okay, Rob."

The longer Robyn rests in my hold the more real it is. I'm really gonna be a mama.

However, I still have Beyoncé to deal with too.

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